Remus flipped the page of his transfiguration book taking in every aspect of the words he red. As Professor McGonagall began to explain the new transfiguration spell to the class Remus faced the front. He looked at the board where notes where written. He dipped his quill in his ink and began writing the notes into his notebook. As he wrote a bit of hair kept falling in his face. He would silently wipe it out of his face and carry on paying as much attention as he could. He was so beautiful. Writing away fanatically in his notebook making sure not to miss a single word. How the morning light from outside the window cast a golden color on his perfect skin. How his soft looking fluffy hair sat on top of his head. How his teeth would catch his lip when he was focusing hard. It was cruel really. How did they expect Sirius to pay attention to something as simple as transfiguration while the worlds most beautiful being was sitting only a few seats away from him. It astonished Sirius how Remus could keep making him loose his mind and forget everything for a moment. By simply doing nothing. Just being Remus. Sirius thought the boy was absolute pure beauty in itself. It was an everyday thing to watch the taller boy. It was safe to say Sirius had major crush on the light haired boy. He just found him to be so gorgeous. And his patience and calm voice soothed Sirius. And don't even get Sirius started about his strong tall frame that stuck out above his own. And god his face. His perfect face. Those amber eyes that would always avoid his gaze. That cute nose and sharp jawline. And those lips. Those plump pink lips. And even the scars that took up residence on his face where beautiful. Sirius perched his head on top of his hand to watch the boy more. Suddenly his support disappeared and his head almost hit his desk. James.
James giggles as he had just given Sirius a nudge to make him stop staring. Sirius shot James a very annoyed look. James started to laugh again. "I can't help myself Padfoot it's just too funny." James said putting his hand in front of his mouth to muffle his laughs. "Not funny Prongs!" Sirius whispered. Sirius faced he front of the class and James followed. "Why don't you just ask him out?" James asked quietly. Sirius let out a loud laugh that made Professor McGonagall turn her face to the two boys causing a disruption in her class. "Boys please." Is all she said turning her head black to he board to write down some more important notes. Sirius is back to looking lovingly at the cute boy with slight curls. "I wasn't kidding Sirius, why don't you just ask him out?" James repeats leaning toward his friend. "James please don't be foolish." Sirius answers quietly. "The only one being foolish here is you Sirius. You like him you can't keep your eyes off him, ask him out." James pushes. "I can't just 'ask him out'!" Sirius says dramatically turning to his friend. "And why not?" James asked a little grin playing in his lips. Sirius roles his eyes just wanting James to drop the subject. "I can't just ask him out look at him. He's a good boy and I'm not. He's careful and I'm reckless." Sirius says a hint of sadness in his voice. "Yeah still not hearing a reason." James says plainly. "He wouldn't go for me James. If he's even gay." Sirius says facing his empty notebook. James coughs slightly. "Oh he's gay alright." James says laughing. "Oh and suddenly your the expert with a gaydar?" Sirius says sarcastically. "Sirius apart from being exceedingly smart I also have eyes and besides my best friend is gay." James said nudging me. Sirius knew Remus was probably gay but he just wanted as many excuses not to ask him out. He was terrified his feelings wouldn't be returned. So many people in Sirius's life had left him behind and abandoned him without a second thought. James was the only one who really stayed. And in his mind Remus was just the perfect person to ever walk the earth. And the perfect person to make Sirius complete.
But Sirius was terrified. He'd rather always stare at the boy than go up to him. He'd rather let his whole life go by without telling Remus the way he felt about him. Then hearing Remus say he didn't feel the same way and he repulsed by him. He couldn't bare that. The small shy smiles in the crowded hallways and "Hey Sirius" from Remus would be enough to satisfy Sirius. How much it wasn't true Sirius wish it was so. He was to afraid. But he wanted more of the sweet tall boy. He wanted to hug him hold him keep him safe, he wanted Remus to be his and only his. Sirius looked back down at his notebook sadly. "Padfoot?" James said carefully. "What's wrong?" James said leaning closer to his friend. "I- I'm scared Prongs... what if he doesn't.. what if he doesn't like me." Sirius said baring his insecurities. James sighed and looked at his friend with a smirk. "Your Sirius fucking black, one of the most handsome guys here! Girls pine over you and so do some of the guys. Your heart is in the right place granted you can be a bit of an idiot but your a great guy and no one could resist your eyes and damn that smirk." James said bringing his hand to his head pretending to faint. Sirius was laughing at his idiotic but sweetheart of a friend. "Prongs why didn't you ever tell me you liked me?" Sirius said deciding to make a little scene of this all. Slowly moving toward James. "Oh my dear Padfoot I was afraid to tell you how sexy you are." James responded leaning into his best mate. "Oh James." Sirius closing his lips in to his friends. "Oh Sirius." James said attacking Sirius in a bearhug. They both erupted in a fit laughter. The class followed laughing at the two idiots making yet another scene in class. But there was one student who didn't find this funny. Not at all.
