BROKEN STAR [Asya story]

And her decision.

I am sitting in my room since a long time. I check my watch, it showed noon. god! how long i must be here. i should get out of here. i whispered to myself.

I feel numb on the touch of my feet on cold hard tiles. dragging myself to the door i turn the knob to open it. the first face i spots right before my eyes is my mother. she is coming up with two plates in her hand. i stay quite and get back on the bed.

the door unlocks once again and she enters. "hi zoe, you must be hungry now." she says and i could just nod my head in yes with out any word.

"so see i got two plates for us lets zoe eat her food with mother." she says happily and claps her hands in air.

i smiled at her gesture and shifted myself on the edge of the bed, where my legs are lying freely in air.

"zoya?" she calls my name nicely. and instantly my head snaps in her direction.

"i have something to tell you." she starts softly, looking tentively in my eyes.

"yes mother" i say , resuming my eating again.

"well, we will have someone today here. he is coming to stay with us." she plays with her digit biting her lips as she speaks. i could feel something is wrong from mile but stayed quite for a while.

"how long will he stay mother?" i ask making a sound on fork scratching my plate as i dug it in to get a Morse of spaghetti.

"its ...he is staying for a longer time. dear." she tries to look into my eyes while speaking but i deny any contact with her.

"are you going to marry him?" i asked directly making her stuck on her food. she coughs on my question and takes time thinking before she replies.

"may be, look zoe." she hooks her two finger under my chin and lifts it up to make me  face her while she is talking.

"mama is really troubled dear. all this bills your expenses my own expenses your study cost and any other debts, mama is failing to match up with all this expenditure baby. she needs help. more of it. if i get a support even we could even give you better life, your bringing up would be done better under the inspection of mother and a father both. we need some one to help us dear. And Rashid is a good guy. he promised me to help us in every way he could. how can i make you understand zoya? but past few months have gone really difficult on your mother i am emotionally and physically tired. we all need happiness in our life. he is the angel we are all looking for after your father have passed away." she completes her speech and i still stares into her eyes blankly with no emotions.

"you like him?" i asks despite of being hating the idea of anyone entering and disturbing our life. may be she really is tired and she is right! may be!

my mother nods her head in yes and i take a deep breath before bringing up my father's face before me.

"then you do what you feel is right. but-"

i stops as she starts with her thank you lectures but my 'but' was enough for her to burst her all bubbles.

"but?" she squeezed her brows and i smiles at her.

"he is welcomed here but he should know one thing clearly , 'No one can take place of my father in my life. he can come here as family but don't expect much from me." i finishes it off and taking of my head from her finger i gets up and takes my plate to the wash basin for washing them.

"someone absence don't make that person extinct in one's life. every places in heart are treasure which cannot me renamed by any one."