•𝑩𝑹𝑶𝑲𝑬𝑵 𝑴𝑬𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑰𝑬𝑺 𝑰𝑵 𝑫𝑨𝑹𝑲𝑵𝑬𝑺𝑺•

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×× warning self harm and committing suicide if you are uncomfortable don't read and leave right here ××

Jenni pov
Where am i
I look at the right black
I look at the left black
I remember i was at the balcony drinking alcohol then i passed out i closed my eyes trying to remember how the hell i ended there.

"jenni"

I open my eyes this voice this voice is so similar but who unknowingly my eyes were filled with tears

" jenni"
By now i look at front what i saw shocked me

" a-appa "
My voice was strucked into my throat i found myself like someone was choking me but body was froze..

I look up at him again but he was not there anymore

Then i felt a hand on my head caressing it gently i closed my eyes feeling the warmth i know who is this

" eomma i miss u "
A tear escaped my eye and in a blink of eye i was in her arms i didn't saw her face but i know she will never forgive

" appa i m sorry "

I look at him he gave me a disgusted face and soon i felt myself dying my heart was pumping in my throat i feel myself getting paralyzed i couldn't move my body i look up again to see them going far away from me ..

i tried to get up i tried but my body gave up on me i fell there crying my heart out ...

" jenni u r strong u can't give up now not like this your appa is disappointed from u " after hearing that i blacked out and the pain in my heart never faded away ..

I want to rip my chest and pull out my heart cause damn it was hurting too much and i can't handle this alone..

I open my eyes again feeling the sunlight strai in to my eyes i look around i was still at the balcony i felt myself shaking a little bit i look around the mess i created again this the bottles around me was shattered into pieces just like my soul my heart

I stood up but soon forgot i was drunk i stumble on my way and stepped on one of the cracked peice of glasses it hurt me i saw the blood gushing around the surface but it somehow relaxed me ..

I smile a weak smile i heared some voice i tried to see where it was from i look around but found nothing

Snap i quickly trace the voice and saw a CCTV camera i gasped no way they know i am doing but ..

If they knew they would have been there taking care of me but i am not worth it i don't deserve it right

I saw a wires going inside the room with a smirk on my face i pick up a broken glass and cut that wire..

Now no one is watching me but as i stared at the broken glass peice..

Unknowningly i stared at it for too long as peice of was already dug into my skin but it refreshed me well it always did i didn't know but i was already walking inside and soon i found myself locking the bathroom door from inside i was still staring at the glass...

Soon i started making small cuts on my wrist as the blood flow out i smile widely i make cut all over my wrist

I throw the glass peice and open the mirror cabinet pulling out my blades which i use normally i dug them in to my skin deeper and deeper soon my both hands were full of blood and it really satisfied me .

i was about to cut more when i heard the door bell rang ..

I sighed i know ...i know very well that they are here but still why the fuck will they ever come here i shrugged off my thoughts but the bell rang again it made me annoyed i quickly threw the blade somewhere and with the trembling hands i washed myself quickly ...i went to my closet changed myself into a oversize clothes tried my best to hide the cuts