After Dark

51.

I look at her.
Carissa sits down next to me. Without looking to her, I begin to read her thoughts.

I know that wasn't a good idea.
And how much he meant to you.
I was overcome by my anger.
I wanted him to feel the same pain that I had to feel.
But now I regret it.

I look to her now,
"I understand how you felt, but doing something like that didn't help", I say softly.
"We also don't know if we can trust Grayson at all", she says.
I'm not sure if we either
really trust him.

"Let's see how he behaves first, if he really sticks to us, we can talk about trust", I suddenly hear myself saying. I just do not think I said that myself.
I can only see Clarissa nodding out of the corner of her eye and feeling something like relief.

"You still have feelings for him, right?", she asks me suddenly.
I just look at her confused.
"I can see it", she says, keeping her eyes on me.
I sigh,
"I'm not sure".
"Then make sure fast, because he's in the house", she says.
Did they get along?
"By the way, he won't go back to the Volturi or to Jane, it probably went not so good with her, she was just with him to hurt you", she says, which kills me.
I start to think about it.
What shall I do now?
I'm helpless.

I go downstairs with Carissa slowly.