Jinhwi/Deephwi • Beautiful✔️

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The last time I came here, I don’t remember feeling so relaxed. Echo beach was a good two miles away from the city, and unlike the usual beaches that were popular spots for locals as well as tourists, this one wasn’t packed with people. The sea and sand seemed to stretch on forever, and so far Daehwi and I were the only few in sight.

I came here sometimes, when I’m tired of life itself. Work and failed relationships often added to my stress and the noisy streets and polluted air were never any help. But here, I was away from it all. Sometimes I pictured myself living here forever, where I could be anyone I wanted to be, free and unburdened. Sometimes I stayed here for hours just lost in the thoughts, but along with it came a sense of loneliness.

I admitted to myself that I wanted love. I’ve seen many others fall in love and they just looked so right together, and so happy. Deep down I secretly wished that this fairy tale would happen to me too, I wanted to feel happy and loved too. But life was nothing like a fairy tale obviously. Finding love was the hardest thing I have ever tried to do.

“Jinyoungie, what are you seeing right now?” I turned to look at Daehwi, who was looking around as if he was trying to see the world around him. Once again I felt a pang in my heart. He didn’t deserve this, he should be able to see and appreciate the beauty of nature like me. I thought for a moment. If I couldn’t make him see, I could at least make him feel it.

I stopped walking and gently tugged on his arm, indicating for him to sit down on the soft bed of sand. I sat down next to him, reaching for his hand again, my fingers automatically curling into his. I saw him bite his lip, but he didn’t pull away.

“The sky is usually blue, like the colour of jewels, but right now it’s red and orange and a little pink, because of the sunset. There are clouds floating around. They are white, and fluffy like cotton candy. It makes me want to use them as a bed and lie in them forever. The sun is setting right now. Do you feel that? It’s the warmth of the sun casting down on us.”

I felt him closing his eyes as I continued. “The sea is a bed of water. It’s now a darker blue than during the day with colours and the light of the sun reflected down on it. If you sniff you can smell the mixture of saltwater and fresh air. There’s a soft breeze now, and together with the sun rays it feels nice.”

I guided his finger to draw circles on the sand. “That’s the sand, it’s a golden colour, and it feels like tiny grains, doesn’t it? They are probably millions and billions of the grains on the beach, too many for us to count. But that’s what makes up the beautiful sand. And you can do lots of things with them. Build sandcastles, make footprints in them, and collect the shells hidden in them to make necklaces.” I exhaled, hoping that my explanation had been enough. “You can imagine it right?”

He didn’t answer, just continued to take soft breaths. Then I noticed tears rolling down his cheeks. “Daehwi-ah,” what’s wrong?” He shook his head, his lips curling into a smile, and I used my thumb to wipe the tears from his cheeks.

“Nothing… it’s just that I feel like I can almost see it,” he whispers, making my heart leap in joy. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him in for a hug. He hugged me back, tears still falling from his eyes but the smiled on his face lingered. His body felt small and fragile against mine, and I started caressing him tenderly. He buried his face into the crook on my neck, the tips of his ears red. I chuckled, this boy was too cute for the sake of the world.

I reached for his sunglasses and removed them from his face so I had a full view of his eyes. Without any obstruction, I could see the pretty coffee shade they were. They didn’t move or blink, and they couldn’t see. But somehow, with the light of the setting sun, they shined like stars. My eyes traveled to his lips. They looked soft and appealing to touch. Along with the rest of his features and, they looked absolutely perfect on him.

He was beautiful.

I didn't waste a second after that. I leaned forward and kissed him.

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I had a dream that Jinyoung confessed to Daehwi on their last day before disbandment and kissed him in front of all the fans.

Now I'm sad that it wasn't real
:( But who knows it might actually happen