When I run outside I find the beach, I sit on the white sand watch the water flows, It's so peaceful
It hurts me everytime I see Jungkook and taehyung together, maybe I might not show it but deep inside of me I'm just a broken glass
long time ago when we enter this boyband my first close friend was taehyung, his so nice, sweet, kind. You name it all and because of that, Everybody likes him, I envy him so much.
I can't be perfect like him, I dont have self confidence and I pity myself for that. I feel like I dont belong to the group. But he was the one who show me how beautiful the world is.
He thought me many things, He help me gain my confidence and he was the one who teaches me how to interact with the other members.
We became close, like twins and brothers exactly. But then, one time I saw him with Jungkook. Jungkook, he was encouraging Jungkook to not be shy.
He tells him that we are a family no need to be shy then calls me saying "chimchim and hope hyung are good in dancing they can teach you" then he leave us two alone. thats the beginning that me and Jungkook became close also.
The three of us are always together, playing together, practicing and working out together.
The times go by, I realize I have a small crush on Jungkook because he was so sweet and handsome, I just find him really attractive
I told taehyung about it, he was so happy about that, he teases me everytime I and kook are together, Sometimes he leave us alone together I didnt realize that I'm already deeply falling that hard
But, one day that night, I decided to visit tae in his room but, I saw them whispering to each other
"Damn it kook, we need to stop this, chimchim would get hurt" I dont understand anything, I hide behind the door to hear more
"N-o n-o no baby, No need to do that,I mean chimchim will understand?" that moment my heart turn into pieces
"No Jungkook, this is not suppose to happened, I'm just helping you with him,it's not a part of a plan that I will fall inlove with you, fuck this!" I heard taehyung shouted but when I peak, my heart broke a million times.
Jungkook was hugging him so tight, crying onto his shoulder "No baby ! dont do this please,I'm the one who will tell him about us,everything will be fine" tae hug him back crying
"No Jungkook, we cant do this, I-I cant, I cant hurt my bestfriend kook" he pull away from the hug. I cant take it
I show myself to them, they were so shock eyes are big "Ji-Jimin?" taehyung said shuttering, eyes are red from crying
"What are you doing here ? did you hear everything?" Jungkook said furrowing his eyebrows
"Exactly, everything! I heard it loud and clear" I went near the both of them "I can't imagine you can do this to me, Especially you tae, You betrayed me!" I shouted then I started crying hard
"You know that I have a crush on kook tae,but how can you do this? I thought you'd help me ?" I said shuttering, both of us are unable to speak, we just keep on crying
"I'm sorry Jimin it's my fault too. Im so sorry" Jungkook apologize but I cant just accept it right away. It's hard and It hurts
"You have a crush on me Jungkook, Your not supposed to be inlove with him, I'm the one your inlove with" I said,I hug him tight "Please Jungkook, let it be me" I started crying again
I feel Jungkook was hugging me back "I love you kook, and I know deep inside here" I pointed his chest "I'm still the one, I can feel it everytime when were together"I smiled at him,
I saw tae on the corner crying, when he realize that I was looking at him he started smile "Yeah ? maybe your just confuse kook because were always together" saying it eyes full of tears
"Fucking stupid !! I love you tae, what are you saying" Jungkook shouted that make me flick onto my shoes
"No kook, You dont love me, Its Jimin who you love" then he run away, Jungkook tries to follow but I stop him
"Just let him be" he push away my hands thats on his arm "Jimin listen, I like you really ! and I still like you" I smiled loving hearing it
"I'm happy to heard that kook, I thought you dont like me anymore" I felt relax,smiling from ear to ear
"No chim, I like you as a friend but I love tae more than that" after hearing it tears began to flow from my eyes
"No no kooks, you have just mistaken" I shake my head and held both of his hands "No chim, I do love him, Im so sor-" before he could finish his sentence I slapped him hard
"Save it, I dont need your sorry" I run fast as I could I dont know where, I just want to be alone,my vision is getting blurry because of tears in my eyes
Suddenly, I fell down I cant even stand by my own I'm too just weak. I just stay there crying, I let it all out
That night I said to myself that 'Jimin you must fight, dont let your guard down, you must fight until you win'
Next morning, I look for the both of them and we exchange sorry's everything was back to normal And I accepted the truth, I tried, I tried to ignore them but I cant.
I said to myself again 'Jimin you must get what was suppose to be yours and be happy'
I sigh remembering that moment, I look at the beach and smile 'You can do it Jimin ! You are here now,so dont back out, Jungkook will be yours soon'
