Roxy's POV
After Brent's memorial we went to our house.Finally I was going to sleep in my bed...But I didn't sleep...
I went to my room,turned on the light and wrote my reasons ''why,, and ''why not,,.I had 13 reasons why...Why to do this,and you are one of my reasons.I'll leave my reason ''why not,,-s here.Also if death is what it seems,why is it so vividly portrayed within my dreams?
MOM AND DAD
They will blame themselves,and its not their fault.They worked so hard to give me a better life.Would be letting them down.
ROMANIA
I could get there someday,probably after college.And maybe I could start over there.
Caroline
She will think its her fault,and its not.She will think she could've saved me,But we cant save people,not that way at least-its more complicated.
Tyler
I really loved him.Maybe we were supposed to be together again.Don't know.But maybe.If I go,we'll never find out.
DAD
Loves me without question.Always wants whats best for me.Even though I'm mad at him,it would be unfair to him to leave.
Mom
I don't know if she could live through it,she just had her operation,plus she is always so on edge already.But maybe that's already my fault.I know she loves me-I wish she knew that I knew.
TYLER
I really wanted to forgive him.To help him to get out from that trouble.To help him to stay away from Dylan and start a new life.
Maybe
Someday I could make a difference in someone else's life.
Maybe
Ill have a kid of my own one day,and maybe she could be that someone else.
MAYBE
Its not as bad as I think it is.Maybe it will get better.
So those were my why not's,but my whys won them.9 reasons why to live with you again...
Tomorrow I'm planning to send this letters in box to the post-office.Ill give them your address Tyler.And I want you to know,that I forgave you...I love you so much.I love you mom,please forgive me...
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"Why nots„ Are Always More
Teen FictionRoxy was just a teenage girl,who loved her life,as we all do.And yeah really who doesn't!But once happened something that cant be changed anymore...She commited a suicide...No one,even her mother, really knew why she did that.But once her ex-boyfrie...
