I barely had any sleep because I've been applying jobs to jobs. I got tired and sick of this bullshit of what I had to do everyday as a daily routine. It's not fun at all and I barely did anything since I'm back home from college. People are being assholes and discriminating over my deafness or either my race. I am a black woman and I was raised by a single mother. Yes, it is very tough to live in the household with a mother but I love her too much. She's my only one that I can tell all of my feelings, not "everything" exactly. I grew up mainstream as a deaf person and I hate it honestly. People were so mean, judgmental and not very open-minded. Those people are not like NY, California, or Chicago; we're from the south side of the states. Southern people tend to be so closed minded and support confederate bullshit that runs on the generation.
Back to this, I am a black woman that was raised by a single mom. I have many talents in art, foreign language and art again. This is basically my life right now, I only sit in my room and isolated myself to sleep. I haven't had good sleep lately. I'd be getting weird nightmares and I didn't feel satisfied by waking up. It's obvious the reason why I didn't get to sleep good; I quit smoking for 2 weeks so far. It's very tough as hell and I hate it. Hell, I don't have any friends either but I have a good friend that live in Florida. I miss her so fucking much and we become bestfriends on the first day of college to the end of our freshmen year. I did party, drink and smoke maryjanes. Some are good people but they are not my "real" friends because nowadays, people stop giving shit about other people and becomes very selfish about themselves. That's totally sad.
