How to kiss a boy ~ Jikook

10

Jimin never knew what real feelings were. He thought he always knew how it worked but it always ended up biting him in the ass. Jimin knows that he isn't perfect, he wishes for himself to be but he just hates himself so much it is hard to change anything. Jungkook changed him in a way he knew that he could be looked at differently. That's why he asked the question. The one that left himself speechless when he got the answer.

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"Yes Jimin, I would love that...so much." Jungkook said smiling with tears streaming down his cheek. "But I think that I need more time..." jungkook said instantly frowning. Jimin was crying. He thought tonight was gonna be a great night. That they would cuddle and tune out the sound of the world. But no.

Jimin was left in a mess. "I-i don't unders-stand.." Jimin said sniffling. "I thought we were.." "we are good together jimin...but I need time. I just don't...dont feel that way about you. I was confused. I'm sorry.." lies. He spoke lies. He just didn't want jimin to know that he was scared of being gay. That night at the restaurant was scary enough for him that he just couldn't bring himself to tell jimin. He actually was falling for jimin.

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Jimin cried all night that day. He was scared of himself. What did he do? He thought to himself. "FUCK...i can't believe I thought he liked me..he's so hot of course he's not gay..." Jimin said punching his pillow. "I hate myself and what I've done."

Jimin was depressed...like he was that day. The day of his mother's accident.

10 years ago.

"TODAY IS THE DAY!! I GET THE BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT EVER." Jimin was telling his friends at school. "I won't ever have to use that stupid phone again. Pictures are meant for cameras!!" Jimin was jumping around waiting for his mom to come to pick him up from school.

"Jimin?!" Some teacher said. "Its your mom, she...she was in an accident." He said. Jimin ran with the guy outside when he took him to the police station. "I'm sorry kid but...she didn't make it.."  one of the police officers said. Jimin lashed out and screamed before the day he was standing at his mother's funeral.

She was dressed in a lacey black dress. Shoes as shiny as the sea. Jimin cried his eyes out. That is when he realized he was nothing. He cut every night for 6 years until he met yoongi. Yoongi changed him.

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Present.

Jimin shook his head looking at his arms..he didn't want to do it. It was just there. So he did it anyway. Cut his wrists until he passed out.

Yoongi went through the door and yelled for jimin because he knew he was home. "Jimin-ah I'm home." Yoongi shouted. He heard nothing. Then all of a sudden a bang on the floor appeared in yoongis ears. He ran up the stairs so fast and slammed open jimin's door. "JIMIN!!" Yoongi cried out looking at his unconscious best friend. "Jimin answer me..." yoongi whispered reaching for his phone. "Yes 911 I need an ambulance at *insert address* right away..my friend is unconscious." He said the lady understood and said "be there soon."

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Jimin laid in the bed, wrist covered in gauze and bandages. He opened his eyes to a blurry vision, looking at his best friend sleeping in the chair next to the bed. "W-what happened..." Jimin said confused about his surroundings. "You cut again...jimin...why?" Yoongi said wiping his tears. "Its his fault yoongi...i gave him the heart...but he didn't want it." Jimin said with his head in his hands.

"I'm stupid I know.." Jimin said.

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JUNGKOOK YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE HAHA