If you suffer from an eating disorder or any other type of mental health condition please think before reading this story as some heavy topics including self-harm, suicide, binge eating and purging will be discussed and I would not like to trigger anyone.
It's like there is a voice inside my head telling me what to. And I just want it to stop... it needs to stop.
I feel under pressure a lot with school, it feels like I have to impress and I have to stand out from anyone else, and if I don't then the demon in my head stops me from what I love. It screams and screams at me not to eat and to go and purge whether that's by throwing up or excessively exercising until I can no longer stand because my legs have gone to jelly and my head is spinning.
It's got to the point now where I struggle with stairs, I don't feel capable of getting up in the morning and my head feels so heavy I want it all to stop. Because I'm so empty.
But, if I eat the demon inside my head screams even louder.
"Why the hell did you just eat that!"
"Go and cut yourself you stupid bitch"
"Your not worthy of anything or anyone"
And it just keeps getting scarier.
I am now so scared of those voices I struggle to be me. I can't think for myself, I am so empty that I can't function at school, I'm so tired that I fear leaving my room as I know I don't have the energy to hide me from the people closest to me. There is a war going on in my head between the demon and me.
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It's not just about losing weight.
Teen FictionThe story of a girl who shows signs of an eating disorder eating disorder who is too scared to tell people this because the stereotypical beliefs of an eating disorder do not apply to her.
