Stay Beautiful

2 - Heartily Laughs & Disappointed Hearts

2 - Heartily Laughs & Disappointed Hearts

I stepped into Chemistry and my gaze immediately wandered off to Luke's seat, which was right behind me. I actually hated it, because I could not gaze at his perfectly fit back through the entire period while daydreaming about us being together.

It even made me feel slightly nervous, since he could see me and I could not see him. If I could not see him, I could not know what he was thinking, if he was thinking about me. It made me fear that once, he would see me turning around and sighing dreamily as he was looking somewhere else and that he would find out that I fancied him.

Maybe I should stop sighing dreamily whenever I see him, just to prevent him from finding out. That might be a smart choice.

As usual, there he was, laughing and effortlessly dragging everyone's attention to him. He was always laughing heartily, I noticed, as I gazed at him from afar. He did not hold back when laughing. He clutched his sides and the probabilities of tears coming out of his eyes when laughing were pretty high.

I was standing by the door, with my books pressed against my chest, inside my folded arms. With Luke, it did not matter if what you said was not funny, if it was intended to be a joke, he would laugh just to make you feel good about yourself. When I realized about this, the very first year and one of the very first times I spoke with him, I fell completely for him. He had swept me off my feet without even noticing.

After a moment, he turned his head and his eyes wandered until they met mine and our gazes interlocked, as if he had known I was there. Or at least that is what I wanted to believe. He was probably just gazing around for the sake of it.

My breath got caught in my throat as our eyes locked with each others' but I tried to cover it up, since he was staring at me so intently. I feared he would notice my helpless love for him and that he would leave me, that we would drift apart.

I smiled and waved over as a greeting. He smiled and waved back. Then, he motioned with his hand for me to come over and then some gazes of the people around him fell on me. Some people greeted me and others ignored me -nothing was out of ordinary.

I walked over and was about to say something when he arose and got his arms around me, embracing me in an unexpected bear hug, the kind I loved. "Hi," he breathed into my ear. I was glad that he greeted me like this. We had not seen each other today at all. I had woken up late and got at last minute to school, therefore missing our usual hangout in the morning by my locker.

He let go of me and my body immediately protested in response, feeling reluctant to let it go. My heart and mind agreed. Actually, every single part of me agreed, but I considered it wise to not say anything about it. We were an item only inside my head after all. "Hi. Sorry, I stayed up late last night and missed my alarm," I explained with a small smile.

The last thing I wanted was for him to think I did not want to spend time with him. If he only knew I would love to spend every single moment of my day with him.

"Really? What were you doing last night?" he asked as he ditched everyone else and followed me to our seats. I grinned at it, but pretended to be grinning at the weird face a classmate was doing to his friend.

"Oh, I had this Art project to get done," I explained with a small shrug as I placed my backpack on the floor beside my feet and placed my notebook and a couple of pens on my desk.

"Did you get enough sleep?" he inquired next as I turned around to face him. he had scooted close to the front edge of his chair so that we could be close and I adored him for it, even if he did it just so he could hear me because everyone else in the room was being a bit too loud.