When I woke up, Ethan was gone along with all his things. I checked my phone and saw that it was 11:23AM. I didn't have any text from Ethan and that worried me. I went to Instagram and what I saw made my heart break.
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She tagged Ethan in it. Ethan was with her. I though she liked Alex. I thought Ethan liked me. We had sex. I was furious. She was stunning and had perfect teeth and a perfect body and perfect hair. Tears brimmed in my eyes. No wonder he liked her. They were both perfect.
Sierra took this moment to walk in.
"Hey, what's wrong?" I burst into tears.
"Me and Ethan had sex!" She cocked her head and sat on the bed next to me.
"Isn't that good? I mean he's totally hot. And completely into you." I began to grow angry instead of sad.
"No he's fucking not. He left me this morning to go with Meredith. Look!" I showed her the post and she gasped, standing up.
"Get your ass up and look as irresistible as you can, because we are going to breakfast and are going to happen to run into him and Meredith." I laughed and went to take a shower. I knew where everything was in Cameron's house because I had been best friends with him since sixth grade.
I got out of the shower and went to Sierra's room. She had left almost all her clothes at his place or my place. Her home life wasn't the best so she either spent time here or with me.
"Wear this." She handed me a cropped white shirt with red, navy, and yellow accents and some light wash jean shorts.
"Oh, and you'll need a belt and tuck the shirt in." She tossed me a red belt.
I slipped on the clothes, lacing up some white Docs and walked back to Sierra.
"Good! Now we are going to dye your hair." I panicked.
"What? No way!" I ran my fingers through my blonde hair.
"Yes, come on." ———————————————— "IT'S SO BAD! I LOOK LIKE DEATH!" I screamed at Sierra.
"Fuck! I tried okay!" She yelled back. I stood, grabbing a towel from the rack and walked out.
"Emma! Stop being such a dick!" She yelled at me.
"Sierra, you ruined my hair!" Tears began to blur my vision.
"You don't have to be such a bitch! God, it's always about you and what you like and don't like. I'm so sick of you!" That stung. I turned and walked back to the room I was in before and grabbed my clothes from last night.
"Emma, wait!" Sierra called after me as I walked down the stairs and towards the door.
"Emma-" I slammed the door behind me, debating on what I should do. My hair was black and my white shirt had brown dye all over it. I sighed, pulling out my phone and dialing the only person I could think of.
"Emma?" His voice was raspy and it seemed like he was breathing heavy.
"I need you to come get me. I'm still at Cameron's." I heard a sigh and a girls laughter.
"Emma-" I choked out a sob.
"Please, Ethan." He sighed again and swallowed.
"I'll be there soon."
Ten minutes later, Ethan's car pulled up. I got in not saying anything and didn't say anything when we walked in the house. I started up the stairs to my room.
"Emma, do you want to talk-" I shut my door and walked straight to my bathroom, grabbing my laptop and starting a bath. I tied my hair up in a bun and striped down, stepping into the hot bath.
I turned on my Spotify and went to RetailMeNot. I searched in the place I had wanted to move to for years. Los Angeles. I decided I needed some help, so I FaceTimed my best friend.
"Emma! Wait, what's wrong?" Ellie's voice was soft.
"There is so much wrong. Look, I need to get away from here for a while. Can I come and stay with you? I want to look at apartments too." She brightened.
"Yes! I'd love for you to come and stay! Did Elise finally say you could move up here?" I smiled softly and nodded.
"Yeah, after high school gets over. Maybe before if I keep my grades at where they've been." Ellie laughed excitedly and clapped.
"Yay! Okay so when do you want to come?" I replied without thinking.
"Can I drive up there tonight?" Her eyes widened and she nodded slowly.
"Yeah, but is everything okay?" I sniffed and shook my head.
"I'll just have to tell you when I see you. I need to go and talk to Elise but I'll see you soon." She smiled.
"See you. I love you Emma!"
"Love you too." ————————————————— Elise agreed that I could use a few days off. My bags were packed and I was gonna take the car. Ethan was downstairs listening to that new Drake song In My Feelings. I could hear him singing along to the lyrics as I was walking down the stairs.
"Where are you going?" He asked, turning down the music. I ignored him and packed the car.
"Emma," he said trying to get my attention as I walked into the kitchen to make some coffee since I would be driving late.
"Emma, look at me." I ignored him and went to put the coffee in my car.
"Emma, please," I didn't respond as I walked up the stairs to grab my keys and phone.
"Look at me, goddamnit!" He yelled, slamming his fist on the stair railing. I jumped and stopped in the doorway of the garage. I heard the crack in his voice and I knew he was about to cry. I always heard that if a boy cries for you, he really loves you. If he loved me, he wouldn't have gone with Meredith.
"Emma," His voice was soft and pleading. I slowly turned around and saw that his eyes were wet and red.
"Talk to me. Just say something." He begged. I swallowed the frog in my throat and sniffed, feeling a tear roll down my cheek.
"Have fun with Meredith. You two are perfect for each other." I said and turned to get in the car.
"Emma, wait!" He ran after me but I was already staring up the car.
"Emma!" I heard him cry as I pulled away from the house. From him. Knowing I wouldn't come back. I think he knew that too and that's why he was so desperate. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I thought about everything I was leaving behind. Cameron, Alex, Aaron, Matthew, all the kids, Elise. Ethan. I needed to forget him. I had to. He was worthless to me. He always said I was worth it to him but now was different. I wasn't worth it this time. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• okay so this is going the be the end. i'm gonna start on the second book asap because i love where this is going and you dudes are gonna be soon afffff. i love you all and thank you so much for everything! the next book is going to be called Independent and the fist chapter will be up today.
