Walled Heart

12. Doubtful

How could I ever be sure?
Inspite of trust and forms
When all I can see is pure blur
Just want to make lure

How could I ever forget?
To all the things that has been promise.
In just my outburst and inquiries
And a version of pure evidencies and shitty words

How could I ever trust?
To those time when I could just nod
To your smile and wonder in the eyes
It makes me regret it now and just like that fo a lifetime

How could I ever be a nonesense?
In pictures and in your perfect game.
But may I remind you with this
I'm just a girl who knows what the game should be play.

How could you ever do that?
In times where you in the state of being down flat
You had me and I trust you enough
But you make me think again for being like that

How could I ever believe that you become a man of dignity and I can't imagine I was going to say that.
Where you always disappoint me with your action and lame reality
In times where no one ever there for you
I had been the one foolishly support you

How could I ever be a girl of your dreams?
When you had been the version of a villian
In forms of endless rim
You created me to become an elite fighter of fame

How could you ever say you become successful without any help?
As willing to remind you of everything
You become one of a man who cried and say sorry
But I help you with everything no ones ever does?

How could I forget when you created this side of me?
A doubful, a second guesser,a detective and not being me.
I could not lay down here and explain to you step by step of reality.
Because from the beggining you was there

How could I ever be reluctantly forget?
With your attitude and leave people
I understand now why no one has been there for you
Because no one ever love to spend time with someone who as liar and make fun of using people

How could I ever forget?
You became my inspirations and turns out to be an apology
My own version of regrets and downful
Admist to my happiness and so called fairytale.