Harmless // Ashton Irwin

After - This Afternoon

I woke up, with little remembrance of what happened before I knocked out. I stood up and went to my window, an looked out at the view.

It was raining, and then I realized what had happened before I slept for so long.

I screamed so loud I couldn't hear anything else but me.

I started to cry again and decided to go look for Ashton again, even if he did leave me.

I checked myself in the mirror then went into the bathroom. I put on some bottom eyeliner and curled my eyelashes an put just a little mascara on, plus put on some foundation to cover up this embarrassing mark on my cheek.

I don't know where the mark comes from, and my parents never told me. I don't think I'll ever know where it came from, but it's not like it matters. It's just a little flaw, just like everything else.

I still had the same clothes from before, so I grabbed my phone and some money, just in case, plus my keys.

I went outside and locked the door and went to my car. I decided to drive to Ashton's place again, to check if he was there.

I turned on the car and Down by Jason Walker started playing.

I don't know where I'm at

I'm standing at the back

And I'm tired of waiting.

Waiting here in line,

Hoping that I'll find what I've been chasing.

I tried my best to keep in my tears but a few managed to slip by. No matter what I do, I can't forget about Ashton.

I shot for the sky

I'm stuck on the ground

So why do I try,

I know I'm gonna fall down.

He's my first love, but I'm not so sure if it was love anymore.

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

Never know why

It's coming down, down, down.

It was more like lust, as if I've been stuck in a fantasy dream this whole time.

Not ready to let go

Cause then I'd never know

What I could be missing.

I don't even remember why I started to like Ashton in the first place.

But I'm missing way too much

So when do I give up

What I've been wishing for.

It's not like he has beautiful amazing hazel eyes that can be stared at forever and ever.

I shot for the sky

I'm stuck on the ground

So why do I try,

I know I'm gonna fall down.

It's not like he has an award winning smile that could cure cancer and start world peace.

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

Never know why

It's coming down, down, down.

It's not like he was the perfect prince charming for anyone, except me.

Oh I am going down, down, down

I can't find another way around

And I don't want to hear the sound,

Of losing what I never found.

At this point I couldn't stop crying. He means so much to me while I probably don't mean a dime to him.

I shot for the sky

I'm stuck on the ground

Why do I try, I know I'm gonna fall down.

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

I'll never know why

It's coming down, down, down.

My vision was very blurry, I could barely see anything.

I ran past a red light because of how I could barely see the road at this point.

I shot for the sky

I'm stuck on the ground

Why do I try, I know I'm gonna fall down.

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

I never know why

It's coming down, down, down.

As the song finished, I stopped at a gas station to clean up my face from all the crying.

I parked my car and got out and went inside. I walked to the cash register to ask if there was a bathroom that I could use.

"Hey," I started, "Is there a bathroom here that I can use?" I sniffled.

"Yeah. Right over there past the freezer of drinks." He said.

I didn't really know if I could trust him, but I needed anything that I could get right now.

As I was near the door, the guy at the cash register called out to me," Hey! You're hot, by the way. Maybe we could make sparks fly someday." He winked.

I rolled my eyes and walked into the bathroom and locked the door shut.

I looked at myself in the mirror. I wasn't looking so hot, really.

I heard a knock at the door and I began to panick. I mean, I'm practically the only person in the store, right?

"HEY LET ME IN WE HAVE TO MAKE SPARKS FLY!" Shouted the cash register guy from outside the bathroom door.

I freaked, and I heard the handle jiggle.

"Damnit. He has a key." I thought.

Just as I didn't know what else to do, the door opened. There was the cash register guy and he came walking towards me.

"Alright," I thought," How do I get out of this situation before I get raped or something."

Before I knew it, I kicked him in the balls, and starting running.

I ran all the way to my car and turned on the engine, and started driving away from the gas station.

"Pervert" I thought.

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hEY SO I HAVENT UPDATED IN WEEKS AND IM SORRY I HAVENT HAD THE FAINTEST INSPIRATION UNTIL NOW AND IM SORRY IF THIS IS REALLY SHITTY ITS 3AM AND I CANT SLEEP SO YEAH THIS IS A FILLER AND ITS REALLY SHORT BUT I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT! :-)