Namjoon's P.O.V
"Hyungie wake up!!" Jungkook said
Namjoon had his own room and always had his alarm wake him so he was confused when jungkook came to wake him
"I wanted to tell you that they canceled all the meetings and the dance instructor is sick so we have a free day!!" Jungkook said in excitement "why didn't sejin hyung call me?"
"Oh he did but you didn't answer so he called jin hyung and told him"
He was right , namjoon had 3 missed calls from their manager "but why didn't my alarm go off?"
Couldn't even answer a single phone call? What kind of leader are you? What if it were something else? Pathetic
"I turned it off so you can sleep more aren't I a good makenae? Oh and breakfast is almost ready so take a quick shower and come on"
"Alright" when namjoon got up but the pain from his ankle shot up again making him hesitant in his step , that didn't go unnoticed by Jungkook but he didn't say anything about it and played it as if he didn't see "hurry up you don't want jin hyung to be mad!"
In the bathroom namjoon looked at his naked figure at the mirror and saw what the comments said
'Fat'
'Shit face'
'Useless'
'Ugly'
'Talentless'
'Monster'
'Weak'
'Not a good leader'
'Freak'
'Bad rapper'
'Loser'
'Fake'
'Cheap'
'Rat'
'Not an idol'
'Drop dead loser'
'Depressed'
'Sick'
'Attention whore'
'Fuck up'
He resented himself so much He looked at his stomach and he hated it , he looked at his face in the mirror and he hated how chubby his cheeks looked , he looked at his thighs and he hated how thick they were , he looked once more at the mirror and thought 'I need to get thinner.. thinner is better' and thus he started his harsh diet once more
He went in the shower and turned the water on it was cold , very cold but he liked it , it was calming
When he was done with the shower he was shivering and his lips were a bit blue , he dressed himself in a long sleeved black shirt and grey sweat pants the color on his lips wasn't visible anymore but he still felt cold so he pulled down his sleeves a bit more and went out
The guys already started eating when he got there , he took a seat and in front of him was a plate of pancakes with fruit on the side he was happy that he was sitting putting less pressure on his hurt ankle
Look at all of those calories
That made namjoon gulp and gave him a wiry look , Jin kept an eye on namjoon as he was picking on his food and only taking little bites "you don't like it?" He asked "n-no hyung it's just that I'm a bit full from yesterday" he pulled down his sleeves more , hoseok looked at him confused namjoon hadn't eaten much yesterday either but he kept on eating
"Oh okay but at last finish half" jin said eyeing his sleeves a bit but it wasn't obvious he was , he kept a close eyes in the leader the entire Tim during breakfast "namjoon could you wait for me at the living room I wanna talk to you" he said when he saw namjoon get up and throw away the pancakes putting his plate in the sink
"Sure hyung" he said pulling down his sleeves more and went to the living room When he sat down he pulled he left leg towards him rubbing his ankle he stopped when The other members came into the living room , now he was waiting for jin to finish the dishes since it was his turn today , after he was done he took the seat in front of namjoon all the other members were giving him weird looks and he didn't know why "what did you want to talk about jin hyung?"
Jin sighed and looked namjoon straight in the eyes "namjoon I want you to answer me with all honesty" namjoon gulped at the seriousness of his hyung and gave a hesitant nod "did anyone and I mean anyone hurt you yesterday?"
Namjoon was confused as he pulled his sleeves more 'damn this room is freezing' he thought before answering "No" jin signed at the answer "Then are you sure your ankle is fully healed?" Namjoon was hesitant this time but answered "Yes"
Jin looked at namjoon with sympathy but namjoon saw it as pity
"Namjoon they told me what happened at the park" at that namjoon panicked "I-if you're talking about that rock them it's fine it doesn't even hurt" namjoon wanted to get out of there , not only he hated having this conversation but he hated even more since the others were with them , they were all looking at him like they were starting into his soul "that and this" he pulled out a piece of paper that namjoon knew all too well "you're telling me this is nothing?" He cleared his throat and starting reading the letter very loudly "RM" he started namjoon wanted to grabs the piece of paper from his hand but was stopped by a suga who put his hand on his shoulder
"Leave bangtan , I'm saying this to help our boys you do nothing but drag them down and that is why I request you leave actually" he could hear the others mumbling stuff at the note
They probably agreed with it you drag
"it's not just me a group of army want you to leave , that'd be best for the boys fame and army's liking they'll gain much much more fans if you leave and that's a fact So go die behind a bush somewhere and let the boys shine From anonymous , you're telling me this is nothing? How could you not tell us? You can't keep stuff like this to yourself"
Namjoon wanted to die right there and then but he knew he couldn't so he wanted to change the topic "my ankle hurts a bit I tripped yesterday on a rock" jin sighed at the attempt but let it slid he put the piece of paper in his pocket "fine since we have a day off let's go check on it , kookie can you help namjoon up"
With that the doctor said that it wasn't completely healed to begin with and that this time he really needs to stay off it and the guys made sure of that while namjoon felt trapped
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