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Depression

I have gotten depressed before. Gee golly you best believe that.

And my parents didn't help and no I didn't tell the world poor me . Fell bad for me because I knew if I told my mother it was going to be all about her and my dad.

And I knew if I told my friends they would feel horrible and be there every single step of the way .

But I didn't want them to see me hurt I didn't want anyone to see me hurt. I can't cry in front of people without feeling powerless .

And I know crying doesn't mean you are weak . But it doesn't change the fact of how I feel.

One time when I was little someone told me that crying makes you weak . And that a real woman doesn't show her true feelings.

My whole perspective change when I met someone who became my best friend.

We'll call her Annie . I met annie on December 26 2017. She was being violently bullied on wattpad and musical.ly no matter how many times we reported it nothing happened.

The accounts would be taken down and they would come back with new accounts. Everyday it became worse and worse.

Eventually the bullying became death threats. And she deleted both of her accounts. She became deeply depressed and me being the person I am had to try to make her feel better and tell her the truth that she wasn't what they said . That she was the most beautiful Important person.

If she needed someone to talk to. I was there if I needed someone she was there . She told me many personal things that no one should have been through.

I've been through alot of things but hearing what has happened to her made me rethink maybe my life wasn't worth being depressed maybe yea it was hard but I survived it.

But she was going through it right now . And I was determined to help her get out of it!!!!

Annie would cut her self . After she deleted her accounts I got her to stop cutting. All that was left were scares on her wrist.

The bullying stopped for three months and everything was good she was becoming happier every week .

They some how got her phone number and her email. And the bullying started happening again .

On April 6 2018 we had another conversation about our future. As young adults we would move to New York City and live together and she would do all the financial stuff because I cannot multiply to save my life!!!

Then we would get married to nice men who had good jobs and live next door to each other and have one huge back yard.

We would have party's and our children would be best friend's . Our oldest children would get married to each other . She seemed upset but told me she was only tired. So we ended the conversation with good night I love you.

On April 8 2018

I got a message at 12:30 pm saying that my best friend had killed her self.

I messaged back nd said that this wasn't a funny joke. Her mother called me and said it wasn't a Joke.

Deleted every message and turned off my phone hoping that when it turn back on .

She would message me asking how my day was.

My absolute best friend killed her self .

Anyways.....ehhhh I'm sorry that was depressing asf.

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Otay I'm done!!! Next chapter will be a funny story time . I just wanted to get this off my chest .