Military Sister

Dont go...

*Flashback*

I woke up, I was only 15... Jake and I were so close. He talked about go to the military a lot. He always said how he wanted to serve his country. The first time he told us was at a dinner. He explained that he wanted to go. I began tearing up. Jake and i were inseparable, I knew that if he left it was going to hurt me. A lot. Once everything was figured out, we were at our last minutes with jake. That day came so quickly. We were all out side. Of course my parents were inside, they didn't care about us, they never have and they never will. Their own son was off to the military and they didn't care. All my life it seem as if it were just jake and I. Jake cared for me, he made sure I grew up in the right path. He has always been the person I looked up to. In the last minutes with jake, I tried not to cry, because every time I cried he would cry to. He hated to see me so upset, it hurt him. We stood quietly, staring at each other. Then I had broke the silence. "Why are you leaving me..." I looked at the ground. Jake sighed "I wanna go and serve my country Ava, we've been over this. I wan-" I cut him off by hugging him tightly, crying. "Don't go. Please don't leave me. Don't leave me with mum and dad! They'll hurt me! I need you Jake! I need you!" He hugged me back and he stayed silent. It felt as if I just got stabbed in the heart. Jake brought me happiness. Jake pulled away and looked me in the eyes and smiled sadly, "Ava, I'm so sorry. You're gonna have to grow up and learn about responsibility. Life is going to get hard and this I know that by doing this it's effecting people, especially you Ava. I'm sorry for the times I would neglect you. I'm sorry for the fact that I'm gonna be away for a long time. I'm so proud to call you my sister. I want you to do great things with your life Ava. I don't want you to blame mum or dad for any of this, okay?" I let a few tears slip out of my eyes and nodded, unable to speak at the moment. "I'm sorry for all the wrong things that I've done. This is gonna be hard Ava. But I want you to blame this on me. Don't take your anger out on anyone else. Just blame me. I know you always get angry when your upset about things. Just.... Just blame me please. I'm sorry that you'll have to do this all on your own. Be good okay? I love you Ava." I nodded once again, hugging Jake again. I noticed the car coming. It was the time. Jake was leaving. Things were happening all too fast, my breath quickened, and my heart was pounding. Jake held me close one last time. I started crying again as Jake picked up his bag, throwing it into the car. He hugged one last time. He sat in the car and I lost it. "Don't go please Jake!! Please don't leave me, not now!! I can't live without you Jake. I need you now more than ever!!" I was a crying mess. Jake looked at me with sorrow. I fell to my knees, with my head in my hands. I couldn't bare to see him go. I looked up and before I knew it, the car that held my hero was long gone and out of sight. Everything was falling apart. My heart now felt as if someone ripped it out of my chest and threw it to the ground, stomping on it until it was nothing. Who knows when I'll see Jake next. I wish I could go back to the time when Jake and I were younger, when I would get nightmares and go to his room and crawl into his bed. He kept me safe. Now all the safety is gone. I didn't have many choices. I sat in the same spot for hours. The sun was no longer showing but I didn't care. I got up and started making my way to a lake nearby. Jake showed me the lake when I was 12. We went every time I was in a bad mood. As I got there, the memories flooded into my head. "I love you too Jake..." I whispered. Tears fell down my face as I walked closer. My entire world just came crashing down and I didn't know what to do. I wanted Jake back. But all I can really do is blame him like he said. Which was hard. I stared out into the water and said "Don't go..."

*Flashback over*