The Killer Alpha Is My Mate..?

Forgiving

It has been 2 and a half weeks. My wolf is going crazy for our mate. I still wasn't sure though. I know I may be over dramatic, but think about it. He had sex with me! But..... I didn't exactly say no... dammit what am I doing with myself. I need to figure all this out. Right now I am in sex ed. Zoning out as usual. I have had so much on my mind that this is what I have done for the last 2 or so weeks.

"Danyel." Mr. Reynolds said
"What.. huh" I said
"Did you hear the question I asked to the class?" He said smirking at me
"Honestly, no. I didn't sorry sir." I said looking down
"Its ok, maybe you would like to give your opinion on the question" he said softly.
"Ok, what is it?" I asked
"Is it wrong for a man to have consensual sex with a woman if he has a secret." He said looking at me dead in the eyes.
"It depends." I simply said
"On?" He said still looking at me. It made me feel like it was just him and I.
"The secret, how big, how small, the situation" I said
"Do you think that if this happened.. let's say to you. You and a guy and you both feel like you were made for each other and he kept something from you because of let's say a law.. would you forgive him?" He said
"Eventually. Yes I would. But the guy would have to understand the trust issues and the hurt feelings that would come with my forgiveness. He would have to understand that I would have been saving myself for someone special. And even if he was that someone he could have waited for sex for when we both knew the secret. That even though we were made for each other sex is a big deal. That I didn't want to feel like a slut. For my first time. I didn't want to feel dirty. Yes I gave permission so it was my fault as much as his. But sometimes people don't understand the pull they have with someone else. And if the guy knew the pull and understood it and the woman didn't then the man should have been in better control of himself until the girl knew and understood. Because if the man doesn't control the girl is upset and hurt and feels dirty about herself. And no man that truly loves a woman would want her feeling like this. It is truly sad that a man would do this to a woman. And trust me when I say it hurts like a bitch." I say angrily while tears run down my face. Everyone in the room was silent. Mr. Reynolds had tears on his cheeks.
"That guy is extremely stupid" he finally says.
"Not stupid... Just makes mistakes that I hope he tries to fix." I whisper so that only wolves who know about us hear.
"I will.." He whispers back.
" I know" I whisper then I get up and walk out if the room and run to the bathroom and start crying. I already love this man. I'm so broken.