Vad Bibes

▨5- Questioning the feelings

My eyes suddenly opened with an annoying headache. I turned to my right to check the time, and it was 4:15 in the morning. I got up to a sitting position as I fell asleep on my couch, and looked at myself- realizing that I didn't even bother to change my clothes from last night's trauma. I think, it's time that I admit to myself that I do need rest, or perhaps a medical support. "Yeah, shut up." I whispered loud to myself. Yes, I have battles with my own thoughts. I've been doing this for a very long time. Long time, as in, from at least when I've got involved in what I do now.

No matter who you are, you'll always have a part in your mind who'll tell you about the right things you should do when you tend to be a part of the wrong environment.

As soon as I get fresh, I walk towards my balcony while rubbing my face with a towel. I looked around the view which gave me a fresh vibe. Just like what I needed. I shifted my gaze exactly below my balcony to see Lucas sitting on the wooden chair working with some stuff.

Sometimes, I really wish if this boy had less of an attitude and more of a generous humour in him. I mainly wish if he stopped trying on me and didn't flirt thinking that I'm another girl who'd fall for him. Pfft. 

I took a rock from my flower bucket, small in size and attempted to shoot it at him. As it touched him, he almost jumped on his ass and instantly looked up, at me. "Are you kidding me?" He mouthed me since it was early in the morning, and screaming wouldn't be so pleasing. I smirked at him. He waved his hand downwards directing me to go down where he was. I rolled my eyes at him, and walked towards my door to exit my room.

I was in my grey sweat pants with a white tee on top. My favorite color combo of all time. My hairs were flying around my face as I hopped from one step to another down. Soon, I approached towards Luke and he gave me a smile, and like always, I ignored it and sat on the chair beside him. "What are you doing this early morning?" I asked with my face frowned. "Can't sleep." He lightly rubbed his eyes with the back of his left hand, and looked at me asking me the same question, but more like telling me the phrase, "You should be sleeping now."

"My eyes opened all of a sudden. It's hard to go back to sleep when one experiences something from the very past." His gaze shifted on me as he was reading a paper that he was working on.

"Is it about Willia-?" He almost asked but I cut through, "No, gosh.. It's about last night, you ghoul." He exhaled uncomfortably which I exactly knew why for. He still couldn't get over the fact about what I had with William. 

I looked at him for no reason which gave him this chance, "Now that I asked you something about Will, is there anything I'd like to know that could've been bothering you even after years?"

My heart skipped a beat, "Nothing special, I guess."

"You guess?"

"Maybe? Why are we even talking about him?"

"Because I wanted to question about your feelings, and he is bounded in it. That's why I picked his name." He leaned close to me as he stated his fact. I moved away and stood up, "Don't ever try to grow questions on me anymore as I will not answer them, Luke."

I attempted to walk, but soon enough, I felt a strong grip around my wrist. 

No way..