Snowflakes & Feathers WATTYS 2019

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Starting their first year together!

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I was sad that he was in Spirit Hall and not Mind Hall. Because it meant that, we would only have time to talk during weekends and Lunch time. I had this urge to keep him close but it felt different from anything I have ever felt before. At least he is not alone at the Mind Hall table; he has his cousin, Bruce to talk to. Flo got to join my brother in Body Hall and I feel bad for my father because they are troublemakers together. Anna got Mind Hall and she went straight for Lewis to hug his shoulder. I could tell that she loves him even though he mostly has his nose in a book. I hope that they will find love with each other by the end of this year.

After dinner, I got up and started heading to one of the courtyards to stretch my wings. Staying on the boat during the trip made my wings itch with the urge to fly. Halfway there, someone grabbed my braid and pulled me into an empty classroom. I cried in pain as the guy pushed me to the wall. My back was towards him but my head was tilted back from him pulling on my hair.

“Hello, Viktor.” A shiver went down my back at the voice.

“Achilles, you asshole.” I turned my head and glared at Achilles as he was smiling.

“I noticed on the boat that you were talking to a cute small bear rug.” I did not care that he still was gripping my hair, so I tried to punch him. “Such violence! Shame on you.” He grabbed my hand and then slammed me into the nearest desk. “I was about to offer you a trade.”

“I would rather deal with a demon than sell my soul to you.” I spat out as he pushed me harder into the desk.

“You will change your mind after you hear my offer. I will inform all of my buddies to stay away from your little bear if you become my sex slave until we graduate.” He slowly started to trace his fingers from my neck to my waist. He stopped at my hips and gripped it hard. “One rule is that you have to stay away from your little bear the whole time that this offer is up. You know that I have a lot of friends here that want to spill some werebeast blood.” I was frozen with fear because of his offer, my body for Snowflake’s protection. “What do you say now?”

“Yes. I will agree to your offer as long as you follow one rule. No kissing at all.” I said without a second thought.

“Fine with me.” I sold myself to someone worse than any devil. “Time to seal the deal. Sing for me, little songbird.”

    I felt so tainted after he was done with me. He left and I had to pick myself up and got dressed in pain. I could see the bruises forming on my skin from his rough handling. Times like this, I really hated my skin with how easy I get hurt.

    As much as it pained me, I started to spend lunchtime with Achilles and his friends instead of hanging with Snowflake and my brother. He had his hand on my waist while I sat on his lap as he talked to them. Every time that I tried to look at Snowflake, Achilles would dig his fingers into my side. I had a frozen smile stuck on my face even though I was sad. I became doll-like because all I did was sit with him and look pretty at the table. My voice slowly started to fade because I did not get to use it except to cry out in pain and fake pleasure.

    Classes were even worse because I was unwelcome to both humans and werebeasts. I was called ‘slut’, ‘whore’ and ‘traitor’ by them every time I passed them by. The few times that I was able to look at Snowflake, all I saw was sadness and loss in his whole body. I was breaking inside even though I showed no emotion on my face. I created a mask to hide my true emotions as I lost who I was before this year. I became a walking porcelain doll as I was hollow on the inside and frozen emotions on the outside. I hated the months that continued this torment, I wanted it to stop but then they will hurt him and I do not want that. If he got hurt then it would be my fault because I was too weak to stop them.