As I sit here staring at these seemingly perfect people, wishing I could look like that. I wish I didn't feel like I need to look like them or be like them in order to be happy. But in reality, I do, I feel like if I don't look a certain way or dress a certain way, then I am not good enough. However, the things I do to myself ARE for myself, I wouldn't do it if I didn't think or know I would like it. My piercings and dying my hair are ALL for me because I feel as it would make me feel more confident that is why I do it. But I still feel like my physical attractiveness and the way I dress (wish is almost nowhere close to how I really want to dress) gets in the way of my life and how I feel about myself. I don't know, maybe none of that makes any sense, but that's okay emotions never make sense.
This summer has just been super hard, between the arguments with my father and just all of the thoughts and feelings I have been having. I'm ready for school to start maybe then I would feel better. I hope I can feel better, and that's about all I can do at this point. Just hope and dream, as long as I have that I will be okay, I think.
July 15, 2018, 9:34 pm
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Just Thoughts
Non-FictionThoughts I have over the course of the rest of my high school career. Opinions and Thoughts on topics I feel educated and comfortable in voicing my opinion on.
