Cocktail

Regrets

ZARA's POV
Its been already like 7 months that I haven't heard from him. It was killing me inside not being around him or talk to him.
I started to regret meeting him. Even Aditi was being little mad at him for doing this to me.  Well I couldn't hate him, I really wanted to but couldn't.
Slowly I started forgetting about him but there were few nights where I couldn't stop crying for what he did. I didn't deserve to be treated like this. I didn't know if it was a big deal for him or did he miss me but I was on a verge of breakdown.
It was a year by now and my mom was worried about me not going home. It was my birthday month and I took leave for a week and flew home.
I was at my friends home that day. We got all the drinks and food.
We were drinking and talking. Soon everyone passed out. It was around 2 in the midnight. I don't know what came to my mind, I just dialed his number and when it started to ring I started to regret.
"Hey !how are you?" He answered as if it didn't even mean anything. His voice was all I was missing.
I didn't know why but I finally could speak with confidence about what he did and shouldn't have.
"Hey, remember me?"
"Of course!"
"So tell me, why did you have to leave me abruptly!"
"Why didn't you try to talk to me?, you blocked me everywhere. How can I talk to you then?"
I got so frustrated.
"I gave you fucking 7 months and that was when I realised I didn't mean anything to you. That's why I had to block you from everywhere."
"I thought you didn't want to talk to me. That's why I didn't call you."
"Well its a good excuse to give."
"Tell me one thing, do you still love me?"
I couldn't let him know that I still love him and give him the right to hurt me again.
"What about you?" I quickly replied back.
"I asked you first."
"Maybe, what about you?"
"Of course!"
I didn't expect that from him. I was furious at the fact that if he had loved me, why did he have to ignore me for a year.
"No you don't! If you would really care about me, you wouldn't have ignored me."
"But you blocked me everywhere!"he said it so causally.
"That's not an excuse. If you'd really care for me, you'd have tried other ways to call me!"
"Let's just leave the past here and start freshly?"
I didn't know what came to mind and I just said "Okay!"
That reply of mine ruined my rest of the days.
We spoke for few minutes and it was late when we hung up and I hit the bed.
After few days I left to college back. I was scared how to tell Aditi what happened.
Surprisingly she was fine, though she just keeps quiet whenever he used to call.
It was a month by then and he was planning to visit me.
One day he called and we were just talking when he said,
" Dude,I'm coming to bangalore tomorrow and we will talk about us!"
I was excited about that but scared at the same time worrying about getting hurt again. But I had to get it done at some point.
I said okay and the next day was when he was coming.
I booked a room for him and and other necessities.
Aditi was excited about me solving all the misunderstandings.
But I guess that was the biggest mistake of my life and I didn't see the ending coming.
     *guys sorry for the late updated. I was caught up with work . I will post new chapters whenever possible. Love you all❤️*