broken hearted girl

Part 2

I was sitting at my bed when suddenly my best friend came in. She handed me an invitation card, I smirk while reading what is it for. Then I stared at her.. Don't tell me dimo Kaya! She said..
Seriously girl? It's been 4 years at inaasahan mong dipa ako naka move on.? I said with a smile. Yes it was an invitation of my cousin and my ex wedding after 4 years I know sa sarili ko naka move on n ako nag Karon narin ng another 2 exes after him and now I am certified single. Out of curiosity I check what is inside the card.. I am not surprised n Di ako kasali sa entourage my best friend was the bridesmaid I can't blame her nman kc very close namn kc cla ng bride pero tinaasan ko parin sya ng kilay.. Don't look at me like that I'm just giving them a favor, she said looking at me. Are you coming? She ask me with curiosity.  I don't know, see how.. I said So you're not yet over with him! Seryoso ka ba girl I'm over with him na diko Lang Alam if I have time Para Jan Alam MO naman Kung Gano ako ka busy diba.. She smirk at me. Girl it's your cousins wedding Kung gusto mo may paraan Kung ayaw mo may dahilan, so anong dahilan.? Diretso nyang tanong. Do you really over with Russell?        Pano ako a attend sa kasal ng lalakeng una kong minahal at unang dahilan ng pag durusa ko ng ilang taon, yung akala ko makakalimot ako pag nag karoon ng bago I just realized na Kaya di nag workout yung mga sumunod kong relationships ay dahil sya parin ang hinahanap ko, pero paano ko aaminin sa kaibigan ko ang totoo na hanggang ngayon sya parin ang dahilan Kung bakit ako nag iisa ngayon. Masakit, mahirap mag kunwari sa apat na taong dumistansya ako sakanila paano nila naisip na imbitahan PA ako.. Paano ako mag rereact sa araw na yun habang pinapanood ko silang masaya?  I'll see what I can do. Sagot ko nalang sa kaibigan ko. She grabbed my hand and ask again Amber tell me the truth, I know you.. Kung dimo Kaya it's OK basta sabihin mo saakin Kung ano ba talaga ang nasa isip mo.
Sofie I'm over that was I knew before.. Not until you came with this.. I looked at the card on my hand.
And? She asked
And I realize it's still hurt, how to attend a wedding of the person who used to be your everything.? Pano ka magiging masaya Kung Alam mong masakit parin Sofie you know I tried so hard to let them be happy I did chase my happiness with someone na akala ko makakapagbigay saakin.. I never realize this will happen, hindi ako handa. I wipe the tears coming out of my eyes.
I knew it hindi nga ako nagkamali Kaya sa apat na taon kahit kailan dika sumama sa lakad namin kapag kasama sila at kahit may jowa kana Amber I'm sorry if I need to let you hurt again for this.. Gusto nila sila mag abot sayo pero ako na nag volunteer kc nararamdamn kita., don't worry about it ako mag dadahilan Kung ka man makakarating. And she hug me tight I let myself cry on her shoulder.
Kahit pala Gano na katagal pag dimo totally kinalimutan dika parin tuluyang makaka move on..
But this time I need to try harder.