My First Love

I knew it.

BEEP BEEP BEEP!

I look at my phone to see a message from Austin. We haven't talked a lot lately but whatever I can't take it to hard because I knew this would happen. He is going to find someone better than me in every way and I am going to just have to deal with it.

TEXT CONVERSATION

Austin "Hey Maya."

Me "Hey hows Cali?"

Austin "Um... It's good I miss you"

Me "That's cool what have you been up to?"

Austin "Nothing much just chillin. How are you?"

Me "Fine."

Austin "Are you sure?"

Me "Yeah I am fine"

Austin "I have to tell you something."

Me "What is it?"

Austin "My mom found work here in Cali and she is going to move over here and I have to move         too... Please don't be mad. And I really don't want to move over here but I have no choice. I wish         I could stay with you that is really what I want but I can't"

Me "Save it I have herd it all before. Have fun with your mom. Bye"

Austin "NO please don't say goodbye. I will talk to you later!"

END OF CONVERSATION

I should have seen this coming I knew he would leave me but I didn't want to believe myself. I knew this would happen and I fell in love with him anyway. He hurt me so much. Why couldn't he just leave me alone and just go on with his life like a normal person.

I felt anger running through my body and I couldn't help but just let it out. Everything about me reminded me of Austin and I didn't want to think of him at all anymore. All of the sudden I felt every emotion that was negative.

I grabbed my scissors and cut all my long dark hair till it reached a little below my shoulder. I cut my bangs to right above my eyes and cut the sides to frame around my face. I teased my now short black hair to add volume. I grabbed all my dark makeup, and I applied black eyeliner to my upper and lower water line then put some dark grey eye shadow on my eye lid to look like a smokey eye. I applied black mascara to make my eyes look big and I added dark red lipstick to my lips. I put on a white tank top and black skinny leans with knee high white boots. I grabbed my guitar and my camera sat on my couch and put the camera on my night stand and pressed record. It showed me playing my guitar and I started singing 'I Knew You Were Trouble' By Taylor Swift.

While I was singing the lyrics to the song  I couldn't help but feel angry and sad. So I put all my emotions that Austin ever gave me and used them in the song. I started crying while I was singing and just totally fell apart. I know I did this to myself but I just fell completely in love with him and I know I shouldn't have but it just happened.

I turned off the camera put my guitar away and just lay ed down until I fell into a deep sleep.

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I hope you liked this chapter. It's sorta depressing and short but it will lighten up. Thank you and I love youuuuuu allllll. Please comment. TWANX