Not another triangle love story (got7&bts fanfic)

Chapter 2: Am I the reason?

Thursday Morning and I was already really confused and stressing, I still can't stop thinking about what happenned at Mochigu last night. I get Nam Joon was just trying to make me jealous, but he should'nt have gone as far as to using Yenny, I should've talked to him earlier when I noticed and told him that me and Jinyoung aren't serious- actually we weren't even in a relationship, but before I dealt with Nam Joon I need to figure out why Jinyoung is doing all of this.

I walked around the cafeteria and looked around for Jinyoung,I spotted him with a group of guys.
"Jinyoung!" I shouted
He turned and spotted me and pointed at me, the guys looked at me and started to smile and nod and walked away slapping his back, I walked over to him casually, I needed to start the conversation normally so it would'nt sound like I thought about it.

"hey what's up?" he asked
"nothing much" I replied
"oh yeah" he started "I've been meaning to ask you, would you like to go to homecoming with me?"
"why?"
"huh? what do you mean why?" he asked
"why are you asking me?"
"because I like you" he replied
"no, what I meant was why do you like me?" I asked
he just looked at me blankly
"see, I knew you didn't like me, see? you could've asked me to pretend if you wanted to make somebody jealous or to get rid of your fan girls or something, I wouldn't have minded" I said
"no" he replied "it isn't like that, I really do like you, honestly, at first, its true, I was just messing around, I was trying to get rid of my fangirls, but i grew to really like you as time went on"
"you're lying right now"
"huh?"
"there's no way you can like somebody in 3 days"
"well-"
"okay, so if you like me, tell me why"
"does there need to be a reason?" he asked
"yeah, if there isn't there is no source it could've formed from" I replied "you don't like me, you just think you do"
"then, what am I feeling right now?" he asked
"you're not feeling anything, you're just thinking right now" I responded
I was about too coolly walk away like in the korean dramas after they say a deep-ass quote, but before I could walk away Jinyoung grabbed my arm and started to drag me outside and into the school garden.

"what do I have to do to convince you that I like you?"
"um, first explain why you dragged me all the way to the fucking garden, and you need to give me a reason why, the correct reason" I replied
"there's a correct reason?" he asked
"yeah, you've been in love before you should know"
"wait, how do you know about that?" he asked
My eyes widened, crap, I wasn't supposed to know that, but it's too late to turn back now, I can't lie.
"I heard about it, I heard about Bomi" I replied
"is that why you think that I don't like you?" he asked
"no, I just don't think that feelings like that are possible" I responded
"so, you don't think that Mark and Yerin's feelings are real?" he asked
"well, not now, but it's going to develope overtime, right now it's problably just lust" I responded
"so they will become real, so why won't you let us develope overtime?"
I just stared at him with a blank expression, why did I not want to give 'us' a chance? I'm not the kind to be scared of falling, but I am the kind to be scared of getting hurt.
"it's because" I started "I don't want to get hurt."
"now, I can't assure that you won't get hurt, if I promise that you wouldn't get hurt, I'd be lying, but" he continued after a long pause "I can promise you that hurting you will never be my intention, I know what it's like, and I don't want you to ever feel pain that me or anybody caused, in the end IF there is an end, I can't assure you that you're not going to get hurt either. But take a chance with me, I'm taking a chance with you, you have no idea how scared I am right about possibly falling."
It was quiet for a long period of time until I exhaled
"okay, I'll go to the dance with you."

In first period I couldn't stop thinking of what Jinyoung told me, I was half wishing he would say that, but also hoping he would admit he was trying to use me so it would be easier to talk to Nam Joon, now I really have no reason for him to stop using Yenny and I felt so bad for her, but if I tell Yenny and she hears it from me, that'll be even worse, it'll ruin Nam Joon.