🌟worlds Apart🌟

Backstory

Hello! im kai! you knew that but Hai! so i know you probably don't give a fuck but this story is based off of my life.(not i'm purple furry) But i come from a place that where i live now everybody hates my race is a very hated 1 so where i live NOW we got A LOT of hate and me and my family have to hide that we live or we're from that certain place.and i found a guy that i really liked and his family especially Hated my race. and i was like 'hey do you like this race?' 'hell no all they do is talk shit and start war i hate them' and i'm just like well damn. So i lied thinking it was the smart thing to do and i hated on my own race.stupid right? yeah i know.but i didn't want or need hate but of course..all secrets come to an end..you tell one person and then the whole damn grade knows heres the thing NO FUCKING TOLD ME THE KNEW! so im over here hating on my own race AND THESE LITTLE FUCKERS KNOW IM FROM THERE! and i'm so fucking pissed that know told me 'hey i know your from such and such' and i could've been like 'oh well yeah i just want to be hated on' and so on and so fourth but noooooo they had to make fun of me calling Stupid little terrorist go back to where you came and i'm just bitch-anyway so it got to the point where my parents found out i was making fun oof my own race so they were all like 'your not you anymore! you don't belong to be with this family!' and they completely shut me off they didn't talk to me,the didn't cook me dinner only my sisters,they didn't help me with homework they shut me out of their life. so i did the only good thing to do at that point....kill myself slowly. i cut myself each mistake i made a new cut would appear my sister found out and told my mom.and its funny how your parent start to care when you hurt yourself but any other given moment their like eh shes okay so we went to the doctors and they just said i was fine(well Obviously not) so my parents shut me out AGAIN! and they started calling me names like..'suicidal pig' 'Bisexual whore' and yeah..more cuts!...yay...we went to the hospital this time and they counted 278 cuts on me and my dad cried my mom was just...not bothered she said okay and we left..my dad told my mom she needed to start caring about or at least cook her food and she did that...but....when i was helping my dad i dropped the bowl of rice and my om got angry and she pushed me and my hand landed on THE STILL ON STOVE! and it hurt like a bitch anywho.i ran upstairs and cried being the little baby i am i cut more and you know the rest 329 cuts.and yeah it got to a point where i stopped going to hospitals and i went to therapy and man did that suck so 2 years later i'm starting 7th grade my crush has a crush on me! and they got bullied for it and i did the stupidest thing a human could do....I told them i liked them and your probably like what so bad about that? THEY HAD A FUCKIN GIRLFRIEND! LIKE BITCH!!?! YOUR GONNA TELL ME YOU LIKE ME AND YOU GOT A GIRL!?! HELL TO THE FUCKING NO!-so his girlfriend found  out i liked him and her 'gang' bullied me and and my mind said 'back to cutting!' then mr.Depression and his wife Anxiety and then thier son paranoia came over for a visit and when i say i hated it i mean it. fast foward to 8th grade 398 cuts i never wore tank tops anymore just long sleeves and summers i stayed inside the whole summer..but there was this one day that i will NEVER forget it was friday 8th grade celebration for making to the 8th grade and my crush asked me to dance and of course i said yes we danced for like 3 hours and their girlfriend came back and she stayed with us when we danced when my crush went to get more punch their girlfriend death threatened me and i was like yeah im going home so i told my crush my bai i went home.my mom was drunk my dad wasn't home.my sisters were playing with my cousins and i was in my room just me and Paranoia hanging out...i finally found the razor and i did my thing 500 cuts i finally made but when i looked in the sink there was no blood just...nothing....like no blood at all....i screamed so loud i think the neighbors heard me my sisters came running in with mom behind them..'what is kaia im busy' 'i uhm cut my self and i didn't bleed' 'huh how?' 'i don't know' 'we're going to the doctor' we went to the doctor and they told me something about my blood cells not functioning right from so much blood loss that the didn't porduce blood for that arm anymore i blood back in my arm thank god! so yeah that's my backstory!

if someone has the nerve to bully you don't take it to offense stand proud! if sleep with different guys and people start calling you a whore you tell someone whether its true or not! don't do what i did and think that the only answer was self harm cause it wasn't i was unhealthly cause of my mistakes and i learned from them. i found this song and it got to me and i cried no kidding but it's true! it taught me that not everything is bad we do have good days ahead of us! thank you and goodbye!(btw my crush was a girl but like their non binary so i referred to her as them,or they)