It Started With A Letter

Chapter 6

Hey my mofos im soo sorry the past week has been hectic my Grams is coming down on Tuesday so weve been rushing around cleaning everything so im sorry I havent updated I love you all. xxxxxx Rin

Alexia's POV

          When we got back to the flat everyone was pacing anxiously most likely waiting for us to return. I can't believe I told Harry about Alex. I mean I didn't say a name but he knew what happened. I'd never told anyone else about what happened even my best friend thought we'd broken up because we weren't "in love" anymore. I really had been that naive.

           Anyway when we got home everyone was anxious and when they noticed us they ran over and started bombarding us with questions. We sat down and explained what had happened of course leaving out the part about me being cheated on.

          Louis' eyes widened as we finished. He looked grateful and angry at the same time.

          "Why would you go and tell her things like that?" Louis screamed. I rolled my eyes.

          "Because what kind of idiotic bitch that cheats on you deserves you. You think she was only dancing but I saw the hickey. Oh and when I told her I knew she fucked him she didn't even attempt to correct me so I know that she did. I just hope when she comes to you with some sob story that she didn't mean to or that he forced himself upon her you'll be smart enough not to take her back. I hope when she comes crying that she's pregnant and that "It's your child, Lou" you'll understand she's lying.  Trust me Lou you don't want to be with someone who cheats on you. You can't just forgive them... or believe when they tell you they love you and won't do it again. You can't because it's all lies. They'll say anything and then they'll do it again and they'll try and convince you that you should give yourself to them. That you should give them what only someone who really loves you deserves. You just can't, Lou." I was crying by now. Harry pulled me into his arms. Louis looked over at me with full understanding as did Liam. Zayn and Niall looked confused.

           "I promise you, Lex I won't go back to her. I don't know exactly what he did to you but if you think she's like him I don't want to find out first hand. Now come here and give me a hug. No how about we go to my room and you can tell me everything while we cuddle, okay?" Louis said.

           "Okay, Lou. Thank you." I looked back at Harry. "Hazzy I'll see you in bed. I love you. Nibear if you steal my Hazzy I'll smack you no matter how adorable Narry is."I threatened Niall. Louis got up pulling me up with him. We walked to his room arm in arm. He lied down and pat the spot next to him. I snuggled up next to him lying my head on his chest.

           "Now tell me about that asshole." He said sympathetically.

           "His name was Alex. It was back about four months ago. I thought I was in love with him. I mean he seemed to be the only one in the world that loved me dispite my scars. I wa- I am depressed and I'd cut for years and he made me feel beautiful. But he kept pressuring me to have sex with him. He kept saying that if I really loved him I'd do it. I kept turning him down I wanted to wait. I mean I've never had sex before and I didn't want to give it to him yet but I hoped that he'd leave it be. He didn't. One day I decided it was time. I loved him, he loved me or so I thought. When I got home I heard moaning coming from our room. I opened the door to see him fucking my best friend in our bed. I walked out. He followed me and told me she forced herself on him. I was naive and believed him. He kept telling me he loved me. The next week he was back to trying to make me sleep with him. I kept turning him down. Yet again I decided it was time and found him in bed with yet another girl. I broke up with him but then he... he beat me that day. I went home... to my mums home and I found the razor in the bathroom and I cut and each day since then until the day you guys found me. I still have urges but you guys make it easy to ignore them espespecially Harry. I never thought I'd ever have him as my boyfriend." I blurted out crying into Louis' chest.

          "Oh Lex does Harry know about this?" He asked sadly.

         "He knows I've been cheated on and broken up with because I wouldn't give myself to him but no he doesn't know everything. And you can't tell him Lou. At least not about the cutting and depression." I told him seriously. I looked into his eyes waiting for a response.

          "Okay I won't."

          "Promise?"

          "Promise."

          With that a deal was made. All I had to do was hide the scars he hadn't noticed when we were naked around each other. I'll just hide it.....