My Person: A Colleen and Erik Story

"I guess I'll just have to come back tomorrow"

"What if no one likes season 2? I put so much more work into this season and if no one likes it then everyone will see me fail? Oh no, I'm not only gonna be a joke on Youtube, I'm a joke to the whole industry!" Colleen was stressed. Season 2 of HBO comes out in a couple weeks and she was just now realizing that if it's a flop it will show people that Youtubers can't be taken seriously or respected in mainstream entertainment.

"Colleen, stop worrying. Be confident. You already did one season and people loved it! And lets say that there is no hope in humanity and people hate it. How many of those people can say they created, produced, written, and starred in their very own show? Probably none of them. You win. You already made your dreams come true. Be proud of you hard work." Erik always knew what to say to make people feel better. Listening to Colleen doubt herself sounded like nails on a chalkboard to Erik because he genuinely believes in her so much.

Colleen invited Erik over to do a collab with him because she wanted to make a video with each cast member before the show came out. Instead of shooting the video Colleen had planned the two ended up talking about nothing and everything. Colleen loved having conversations with Erik because she really respected his opinions and thought that everything he shared was so interesting.

Colleen and Erik's relationship was always different than their relationships with the other cast members. While shooting season 1 they were friendly, but never really spoke to each other that often. By the time they started filming for season 2 something just clicked. They automatically were drawn to each other, not romantically, but the two acted like thy have been best friends since the day they met.

"Wow, it's 10:47 already! I should head home you're probably getting tired of me." Erik said with a laugh. Although that was the opposite of what Colleen wanted. She could not get enough of Erik's company. She loved it when they just hang out and talk.

"Yeah, sitting on the couch and talking to you for 5 hours really breaks me down." Colleen said jokingly. Erik got up from Colleens couch a made his way to the door. "Oh wait-ugh-I forgot I needed to film a video with you before Friday."

"I guess I'll just have to come back tomorrow." Erik said smirking, then he walked out the door.

Colleen was thrown off by his response. It was as if he was trying to flirt with her. Colleen has thought about Erik romantically before but always pushed those thoughts into the back of her head because they are really good and close friends.

Colleen went upstairs and edited a vlog to distract her from thinking about his laugh, smile, eyes, hair, the way he talks, his humor, his kindness, his whole being, but it was impossible.

"Girl, get your life together." Colleen said to herself.