"I-I just think we should take a break." He spoke slowly, the hurt evident in his eyes.
"W-what?" You spoke, voice quavering.
"I-i just don't want you to hurt while I'm gone, baby please don't cry" he whispers, putting his hand on your waist.
"No, you think you can make that choice for me? I can do it by myself! I can wait for you, Ash, you can't just leave like that." You screamed at him.
He lowered his head.
"I'm leaving tomorrow, can I spend one more night with you?"
Your whole body shook with anger. How dare he think he can stay?
"So you only wanted me for sex? That's why you're leaving me? You don't think I can handle waiting for you?" You said at him angrily.
"Baby please"
"No, do not call me that. Get out."
"Please" he whimpered, his eyes watering.
"GET OUT" you screamed at him, the tears falling down your cheeks.
He finally left after a while.
You didn't say goodbye to him the next day, he didn't bother calling you that day, or the next, or the next. Soon the only contact you had that was even related to him in some way, was Mikey. You sobbed on the phone to him every day, telling him how hurt you were and how broken you felt.
You saw on Twitter the following month, that he was back with his ex, Bryana. That hurt more than anything else. He didn't care about you. He obviously felt no remorse towards leaving you. He partied every day and he never bothered to call or text. What could you expect? He moved on.
Soon the day came, they were coming back.
You knew that if you wanted to see Michael, you'd have to see Ash and you didn't want to. It would break you. There was a welcoming party later that night that you would attend.
For Mikey not for ash.
That's what you kept telling yourself. You were going to ignore him just like he had to you.
~later that night~
"I've missed you so much" you said to Mikey as you hugged him in excitement.
"Me too Y/N, I missed you a lot" he hugged you tight.
As you pulled away, you kissed his cheek. You felt someone staring at you and you whipped around.
Ashton. He had his arm around Bryana, but he wasn't paying attention to her at all. He was staring right at you. You glared and gave him the finger, turning back around and downing the contents in your cup.
"Woah babe, I think that's enough for you." Mikey said softly as he took your cup from you. You whined.
"No I need more, please Mikey" You whimpered.
Suddenly his eyes grew darker and he dropped the cup. He brought his hand to your cheek and leaned in.
Maybe it was the drinks or the fact that you could still feel Ashton staring at you that caused you to lean in and kiss him.
Before you could pull away, Mikey was ripped away from you.
"Ashton what the fuck are you doing?" You yelled at him.
"That's the question I could be asking you princess, why are you suddenly all over Michael?"
You glared and clenched your fists in anger.
"Maybe because I know he'll never leave me like you did. Maybe because I've moved on, you asshole."
You saw the quick flash of hurt pass through his eyes before he let go of Michael.
Michael quickly left, leaving you and Ash alone together.
His usual hazel eyes, angered and darkened, he stared at you intensely.
"Where's Bryana huh? I don't think she'd like it if she knew you were with me." You spoke in anger.
"Who gives a fuck, Y/N" he growled.
"I do, because now you're here bugging me, even though it was you who left me like I was nothing. Does she know you use people and have no regard for their feelings?" You snarled back.
"You think it was easy leaving you? It killed me Y/N, I loved you and you knew that." He said slowly.
"You broke my heart! And you just left and I hate you! I hate you so goddamn much because I still love you and I hate myself for it. And that is your fault!" You screamed in frustration.
He widened his eyes.
"Y-you love me?" He asked.
You looked at him in bewilderment.
"You know what? Just leave me alone, all you ever caused me was pain." You cried, shaking your head and backing away from him.
You walked back into the house, angrily.
You felt a hand grip your arm. Ashton.
He pulled you away from the crowd and into a bedroom. He slammed you against a wall and locked the door behind him.
"Quit following me. I wanna go home" you said.
You tried to walk over to the door, but you didn't even get a step and a half away.
"You are not going anywhere until we've had this conversation." He said lowly.
You scoffed and rolled your eyes.
"No I want to leave. Maybe then you'll know what it feels like."
"Princess I never meant to hurt you." He whispered, moving closer to you.
You tried to move back from him but you were against the wall.
"Oh really? Did you think of that when you were telling me you didn't want me?"
He got angry again and hit the wall beside you, making you jump.
"Dammit Y/N, I only wanted to spare you okay? It's hard for me to be in a relationship, I'm always gone. This is my life, I'll always be leaving and I don't wanna live like that. I wanna give you all the love and attention you deserve. I wanna wake up to you everyday and cook you breakfast. I wanna grow old with you and tell our kids about the day we met. I wanna spend every moment with you, but I can't. I'll always be gone and I don't want you to hurt, because missing someone is hard. I missed you for 3 months and I couldn't take it anymore. I don't care about Bryana all I care about is you. All I think of everyday is you. Don't you know how dangerous it is? Don't you know how much I love yo-" you cut him off with a kiss.
You immediately grabbed his hands and put them on your waist as you wrapped yours around his neck loosely and grabbing a handful of curls and tugging them slightly. He moans quietly and pulls away, looking at you confusedly.
"J-just love me for tonight, Ash, please. I just want you. All of you." You whispered to him.
He nodded and kissed you again. His hands wandered to your shirt as he pulled it over your head, only breaking contact for a moment.
You moaned slightly as he bit your lip. He grabbed your arms and pinned them above your head, pulling away from you.
"What do you want princess? Tell me." He whispered to you.
"I-i just want you, Ash please."
"Anything for you baby." He spoke.
Unclasping your bra, he pushed your hair to the side as he kissed every freckle that laid on the surface of the soft skin on your shoulder.
"I missed you so much princess. I can't live without you." He mumbled in your ear as you fumbled with his jeans, taking them off and leaving him in his black Calvin Klein's.
"No matter where I went, I always thought of you." He said as you took off your underwear.
"I love you Ashton. Always and Forever" You said as you looked him in the eyes.
"I love you too baby girl. Always and Forever."
He took off his boxers and his shirt, leaving him bare. He tapped on the back of your thighs, silently ordering you to jump. When you did, he caught you. He pressed you against the wall and slowly slid his length inside of you.
"I've dreamt of you every night baby" he softly moaned.
"A-Ash fuck" you moaned as he slowly thrusted into you.
"Nobody could ever make me feel the way y-you do love" he moans into your ear.
"God I love you so fucking much Ash" you said to him breathlessly.
You could feel the fire building in the pit of your stomach.
"Ash please-fuck" you moaned loudly as he hit that spot inside of you.
"I know princess. Feels good doesn't it?"
"Y-yeah" you threw your head back as your legs started to shake.
"Princess are you close?" He moaned.
"Yes Ash please let me cum" you almost screamed.
He kissed you shortly, his thrusts getting sloppier.
"Go ahead baby girl. Cum for me" he moaned loudly into your ear.
You moaned out his name as you came, he came soon after, panting and moaning your name breathlessly.
He carried you to the bed, laying beside you and cuddling you, throwing a blanket overtop of the both of you. You looked up into his eyes. Your heart almost bursting with love for this curly headed beauty.
"Ash?"
He looked down at you.
"Yes baby?"
You kissed him softly, when you pulled away, you spoke to him quietly.
"Don't ever leave me again."
"I won't love. Never again"
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A/N
NO HATE TOWARDS BRYANA!!
The depiction of her in my story fits the storyline and I don't mean to offend anyone, I have no hate against her as a real life person. Just letting you know! ❤️
