Childhood Lovers

New look New book

I walked into school and all eyes were on me. I didnt know if it was because of my walk out or because of my blow out with Sky. Whatever it was i didnt like it. I mean i never liked the attention so i guess changing my look wasnt the best route to go. As i was about to tell Jazz what i was thinking we walked pass these girls and i overheared their conversation:

Girl 1: " Are they going out? I mean they are holding hands."

Girl 2:  "I hope not i mean if so they would be able to run the school, look how powerful and popular they are!"

Girl 1: " Ok yeah...that would be scary!"

I quickly drew my hand away from jazz. I didn't want anyone else to think that. I mean..... Me and Jazz? Together? No way! I mean.... Right?
I was so lost in my thoughts I didn't notice we had made it to Sky's and Alex's lockers. Snapping out of it I noticed Aki walking over.

Aki: "Yo Ani what's up with the look?"

Alex: "Yeah Ani doesn't really seem like you.... Are you OK?"

Sky: "Look if this is about our blow up then I'm so sorry but you don't have to change I really didn't mean to say that...."

Alex's point of view
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Ani looked different. Her aura felt different. She was just so....off, and her and jazz were holding hands earlier or atleast that's what I saw. I mean I don't have a crush on jazz or anything we are just childhood friends!.... Or atleast that's what I think.....I don't know but right now it's not about me but about Ani. But I couldn't get the fact that they were holding hands out of my head. Everytime I tried to think about something, that would come up. So finally I worked the courage to just spit it out!

Alex:A-Ani-chan.... We're you h- holding hands with jazz?!

She looked startled by my request. Like of all things why did I have to ask That for a moment she just stood there while everyone else looked at her for answers. I could feel myself getting red as a tomato while jazz was already red. He looked at me with concern, like he didn't want to hurt my feelings but  I guess I was only imagining it. I asked again hoping to finally get and answer from the two of them.

Alex:"Well were you holding hands or not?"

Ani: "it's not like that! I was feeling lightheaded and weak when i woke up but I couldn't miss school so he told me that I could hold his hand JUST for support."

Alex:"oh."

I felt so disappointed in myself. Why didn't I believe her. Why did this feeling stay in My chest the more I though about them together. Me and jazz go way back so I know him better then anyone. Maybe he just helped her because he was being nice! But this other part of me was telling me 'oh don't be so naive Alexander! When could he ever like you?! He left because of you! He left and didn't say goodbye!'

Before I could stop myself I broke out in tears in front of my friends. I could feel their eyes on me. Staring. I didn't know what to say.

I didn't know whether to move or stand there and cry. I was unsure what to do until Ani and Sky wrapped me into a hug telling me that whatever is going on that I could talk about it, but all I could mummer was 'he left without saying goodbye' while a small chuckle escaped my mouth in between the words. In my friends arms I finally got over it and we proceeded to class. But boy did I know I was in for a world of pain and confusion.