letters i'll never send

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I just want to know why. What did I do to you for you to be hurting me like this? You know that this hurts me and that I'd never do this to you and I'm just supposed to act like everything is okay. I've never had an issue doing that I just don't understand how you could not care. I really think you could have loved me and I would've loved you so much. I think I may love you but that is a conversation for another time. I know that I must stand up for myself and that I can no longer let you walk all over me but there is very little that I wouldn't have done for you. I'm not afraid of losing you I just don't want to let you go. I don't need you at all but you were so many first things for me that I just wish you would've stayed for me. Why can't you love me? Are you scared to? What if I can never find anyone like you? I want to fall in love with someone just like you but I don't even know how to make new connections and I'm scared I won't be able to. I wish you could accept me and love me. I hope you can't stop thinking about me but some things aren't meant to progress. I️t is what i️t is.