Songs-
Say something- a great big world
You said you grow old with me-Michel Schulte
How to save a life- the fray
Luna's POV
It's all my fault. If I didn't come into his life he would be happy and he would be a-alive. I just drop and start crying. Why? It's because of me isn't it?
I feel someone wrap their arms around me and I look up to see it's Cam.
"It's gonna be alright Lulu" he whispers
"No it's not. It's all MY fault. If I didn't see him no if I didn't come into his life 5 years ago. I want him. I don't hate him. The last words I said to him was I hate you. I should of heard him out and just listened to his side. Maybe I wasn't feeling his um needs and I wasn't enough for him. I should of tried and made a effort with him. I loved him no I still do and I couldn't even just let him explain. What if I-" Cam cuts me off and wipes the tears off my face but it doesn't make any difference because they just keep coming.
"Lu there are no what ifs because Nash was happy with you and him and he didn't want anything to change. He made a stupid mistake but you know he loves you. Lulu it's NOT your fault. I'm sure Nash wouldn't want you blaming yourself. He had his own reasons and I hate myself. Because I wasn't there for him when he really needed someone. We were Cash, the best mates who were always there for each other when they did something stupid and we would plan pranks together and he was my right hand man but we always ended up laughing our arses off when Nash said something stupid but funny. Nash and I were supposed to be that pair of troublemakers in the nursing homes and always chatting up the oldies and just being dickheads" he says with his voice cracking at the end and tries to let out a chuckle but it turns out as a sob.
I just hug him tighter and we both just cry our eyes out.
A bunch of paramedics rush in and put Nash on a stretcher.
1 comes up to me and Cam and ask us some questions.
"We are gonna try our best but we can't promise anything. We've seen this before so we just need to ask a few questions if that's alright?"
"Sure" Cam whispers
"So do you know if there was anything that caused this?" He asks
"I think it was me. I yelled at him and I didn't mean any of it. The last words I said to him was I hate you" She says then continues crying.
"No it's not Lu." Cam whispers to me.
"Well he just cheated on Luna and we caught him. I think he thought we all hated him and we wouldn't care if he died. But I hate myself for not helping him or just being there for him." I say with a few tears running down my face.
"Please don't blame yourselves. People who do this they have their own reasons and they don't want everyone blaming themselves." He tells us with sympathy.
" Did he show any si-"
"I'm sorry but can we do this another time cause now isn't the best" Cam tells the paramedic.
"It's alright guys" he says then walks away.
(A/N play Apologize- OneRepublic. It goes with this last bit so much.)
Shawn's POV
It's all my fault. Nash was my mate and I made him do that. I needed to be there for him even tho what he did was wrong but Nash is my mate and he would've been by my side.
Cam's POV
Not Nash. I hate myself. When he needed me most I was just staying away from him. Why He's my friend I'm supposed to be by his side no matter what. I couldn't even look him in the eye. It's too late now.
G's POV
no no no. It's all my fault. I wasn't there for him. It wasn't your time Nash. I could of helped him.
Aaron's POV
Nash please be okay. I could of helped him through it. I could of because I know what it's like...
Haye's POV
not my big brother. Please let it all be a joke. He was supposed to help with my girlfriend and tell me what's right and what isn't. He was supposed to prank me every morning, even tho I didn't like it i would know that he was okay and he was there no matter what then I was supposed to prank him back but it would of been shit but we would of just laughed it out. He was supposed to help me with the hate and say everything is not true and say good things to make me happy. I was gonna be the cool uncle that everyone loved and I always spoil his kids even tho they weren't mine. Nash I need you
Taylor's POV
I couldn't even look him in the eyes or tell him I would be there for him. I could of said it was gonna be alright and she would of came back. But killing yourself was not the answer.
JJ's POV
We may of not be the closet but I loved him like a big bro and he could put a smile on anyone's face. He wasn't only just blue eyes there was a whole lot to him. Please be okay.
Carter's POV
He helped me all the time and I couldn't just help him just one time. He said I wasn't just 'an Asian boy' he said that there was more to me and I just couldn't tell him "Nash it's gonna be ok". Why am I so selfish?
Matt's POV
Nash why? It was just a mistake. We could've helped you.
A/N
Noooooooooooooo! Nash why ya do it???? So are you guys sad or nah? I actually cried while writing this! Hayes was so sad!
Ages
Hayes- 16
Shawn and Aaron-17
Nash, Luna, G, J and Taylor- 19
Cam-21
Matt and Taylor- 18
PEACE ✌️- Skye
