vivid.

idontwannabeyouanymore

She sat down on a lunch stool at a lone table. 

She slowly started eating

the evil energy radiating off the gazes boring into her 

kept her 

ever tense

and the air.

the air

was cold

and still.

"fatso"

like a needle,

to join all the other needles

Flee

Flee 

Flee

crashing down 

onto a cold sharp feeling 

Looking up

she looks into the mirror

she sucks in her stomach

"Why do I have to be this?" 

She's at home

she's watching an anime

she gazes at the characters with bright, sparkly eyes

with slim, energetic bodies

Their hands were beautiful and moved with care.

She looked down at her hands.

A harsh reality

A bitter slap in the face.

She lays back.

letting herself fall. 

Fall. 

and nothing could tear her apart more than her own mind

Her thoughts tore down to her heart. 

A shiver goes down her spine with an icy thought.

Maybe I could I end it

Wake up

Wake up

in some anime world

in some colorful world filled with attractive people, adventure, and happy endings. 

If I ended it and made it 

count

Count.

Count the pills you'll need

spill them

gulp down the feeling of a new ending 

a new wake-up

cut into the feeling 

and be

"happy"