I have been on wattpad for a long time now. I started out reading and writing raura fan fiction. Then I started using wattpad as a place to release my feelings... well I used it as a place to tell a specific someone things that I could never say to their face. Most of the things I write are all the same. I babbled about missing her ,and loving her, and needing her. Yes, I do miss her, and I do love her ,and I do need her, but I don't want to anymore....
I fell for Alyssa at a time when I was really depressed. Life just really sucked and she made everything so much better. So of course she became the thing that kept me going, because Alyssa was perfect, so bright and full of energy, never letting anyone put her down. Still to this day those things are true. I just don't get to see them anymore. I don't know if its because I stopped looking... or if its because she broke my heart just to many times.
I was at fair last week. I was miserable, but then I saw you on Saturday and life was better. It was better because I love seeing you, I love spending time with you , and I love being in your life. But I hate it when you take the love I have for you and turn it in to a game. Sending me orange hearts as if I wouldn't know what they mean.
Alyssa I get what its like to be lonely and looking for attention, I mean I do it every time I write the stupid shit I do on wattpad, but my heart can only handle so much. I can only put back the pieces so many times before I run out of glue. So just stop and think about who you are hurting when you do or say the stuff you do. If you really care about me like you say you do then either pick me over kayden (because we all know I'm the better choice) or just be my friend... and let me move on. Because I am about to give up, and its not going to be pretty once I do...
