I could say I'm happy, I could lie and tell you that nothing is wrong. Which is sorta true, I don't feel pain anymore, I don't have to worry about drowning in my past memories. I have waited for this moment for so long. I thought it would be better then this.
I have a very small social group now, I don't want to meet new people, I don't want people to text me or call. I can't let anyone new in my life, because what if it turns out like last time? What if they deceive me and break my heart? I can't do that to my self again. I can't be left behind.
I pushed the unworthy people out of my life. But the unworthy ones were the ones that meant the most.... I know how pathetic of me to have loved people that treat me like shit. Well I guess we don't have to worry about that anymore, cuz I don't want to love again. I don't want new loyalties.
I just want to be left alone.
2019, it's gonna be a good one....
