Being in love is torture especially if you don't know if the other person even loves you he told me he was only with me because it made me happy but I'm not happy if he's not happy I'm torturing him with love he doesn't want he told me he feels like I locked him down because I don't want him talking to other girls he doesn't understand how it makes me feel he said he loved me did he mean it? I guess I will never know I sit here and look off into space and just wonder will anyone ever just look at me and think that I'm special I'm starting to believe that love just doesn't exist in this world anymore I don't understand maybe it's because I'm young but I feel so much older I look around and see everyone happy and I just wish happiness is what I felt being with him makes me happy but he doesn't want me then there's nothing I can do I'm not hard to love I just want loyalty, honesty, comfort, affection, and your time your love it's not much
