Stone Heart │s.s.w & m.t (on-going)

𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 4: 𝓛𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻

𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 4: 𝓛𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻

After what Katy said about showcasing my talent to everyone again, I realized that I might end up just disappointing myself, again. But who knows? If I don't try it, I won't know, afterall I'm used to being a disappointment ever since. I let out a heavy sigh and just lay in my bed for a while and minutes later I remember something from the past. I proceeded to my table and scanned all of my notes..

"Where did I list that one?" Still searching for my notes. My own composed songs. It was really a long time ago when I stopped singing, when my parents died in a car crash, and after what I heard about Mark, my ultimate crush. At the same time, I consider it to be the greatest downfall in my life.

"Found ya!" I said as I found my old notebook, too much dust!

"Who you are.." I mumbled, this was the last song I composed, and this is the last song I sang in a competition where I lost, not because of the content of my song, but when I'm performing it, I breakdown. Hearing the audience shouting 'boo' 'get off the stage!' 'stop the drama' that made me worst, that is the end of my passion in singing.

I started to read the lyrics when a piece of paper fell down in the floor, I opened it and it's a letter from my parents.. I started to be teary-eyed

✎﹏

To our Princess Wendy,

I now know why you started to read this note. Is our princess sad today? I hope we're with you so that you'll never felt like that. Sorry for always leaving you behind. We were not a perfect parents to you, we are not always there when you needed us the most. But I hope you'll understand one day, that this sacrifices is all for your future, Wendy. Don't overthink too much, okay? If you're sad, just close your eyes and there, you'll see us. We're always with you, even if we are far. I hope we could send hugs to you right now whenever you are sad. I hope we could send you hugs whenever you are happy. Sorry we can't make it for your 18th birthday, we have loads of work here, even if we're in the same country, we still can't come. But we'll definitely make it up to you. We love you, princess. We missed and love you! -your beloved parents ღ

After I read the last hand written message from my parents, I broke down in tears. I really cried out. My heart is really in pain, I don't know what to do.

That was the last message I have, they always send me handwritten letters everytime they're not around. When the day of my birthday, I received a phone call. It was the police, telling me that my parents got involved in a car crash. That is also the last time I celebrated my birthday. Right now I'm turning 20 this week but I don't have plans to celebrate it. Katy knows it. I don't want to be happy when the date of my birthday has been the date of the death anniversary of my parents.

"I miss you both, I really want to be with you.." I whispered. I tried suicidal many times but Katy is always there, on time, like she has this feelings that I'm going to hurt myself, so before I got hurt, she's always there, stopping me. And I'm really thankful having her by my side, she's the only family I have.

I looked at the letter again and just cried again until I fell asleep.