"Only You and Me"

This was three years ago...

April 24, 2011

Dear You,

This is the first time I would write in a diary. and You were a gift last christmas by my Aunt Eileen.

I still do not have the idea on what I should name you but for the mean time It is You. I hate girly things like you. but you know why i want to talk to you? because first.

I am clinically depressed, my grandpere died last week, I do not know how to tell my feelings to other people so I started talking to you.

I hate this feeling, I want to blame my self.

I hope I answered his calls.

he was telling us maybe his time was coming and it just pisses me off.

It was just tragic.

I can feel it deep inside my heart.

regrets.

pain.

Im so done with life, but Im barely living it.

In just a week I manage to lose my oh-so-loving-friends.

I do not know if I made them go away or they just befriended me because my family is filthy rich.

And knowing my Grandpere left made them think I mope because we were broken.

I hate Money

I hate judgemental people. I hate trust . joy. pain. and simply everything involving life.

even if you do not really exist in the real world I am so sorry for making you keep my burden.

Ill see you soon

Sincerely,

C. :'(