The first time I ever restricted my calories I was 12, it was in October And i started with 900 calories, all healthy...and then I got home (I was at my grammas house) I started eating junk food.
So I decided if I was going to eat junk I was going to punish myself, and eat only 700 the next day. So that was my new goal, 700 not so bad right? Wrong.
It's when I started with 600 and 500 that it got bad. My friends would never believe me if I told them. I'm not skinny enough..
It's July 23 of 2018 and today I've eaten 245 calories
Breakfast: nothing
Lunch: a couple of fries and gravy (175)
Dinner: tea with honey (70 calories)
And that's it, I can't wait to weight myself to see if I lost anything!
I have no clue but for some reason I eat super low calories around 150-300 a day and I'm gaining weight! I want to die!!
My friends wouldn't understand, I'm so sick of being the ugly one, or the annoying one! I can't stay like this! I've always been a small girl and I just can't deal with being over 80 pounds!! I'm 5ft 1 ish so I guess it's over 15 BMI, at least it's not that bad right??
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The beginning of the end (tw anorexia and depression)
Ficción GeneralHi, I'm gonna say my name is Emma, my real name is not important. This is my story, about my struggle with anorexia and depression. I've been struggling alone with it for about a year now and I'm getting close to the end. I feel it.
