Ten <Namjin Fanfic>

1. Waited Breath

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A shiver, a cold moment.

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The nerves rise as my chest rises with every breath.

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The monitor beeps in the background, slower and slower

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Could these be my last seconds? I feel my chest tightening

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How could I say goodbye? Would I get the chance?

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Only seconds now

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This has to go well. It has to. I cant bear the thought of...

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...of losing him. The only one who'd ever loved me truly

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Salty tears fall with every blink of my eyes. The anesthesia is taking its toll.

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Jin.....

One Month Earlier

Its an early Sunday morning when Jin wakes to the sounds of my sizzling bacon and the fresh scent of coffee, brewed from my coffee pot.

After a quick shower, he finds his way downstairs into the kitchen. "Good morning, Joon-bug" he says sleepily.

"You know I hate that nickname," I answer coyly.

I place a plate of breakfast food in front of Jin at the table. The yolk of the sunny-side up egg seemed to stare him in the face. "I don't like eggs, Joon-I."

I tap my greasy spatula on the side of the plate. "You'll eat it. It's good for you. Protein to start the day"

"You really didn't have to do all of this," he says between full bites. "I didn't expect bed and breakfast"

I turn and give him a sly smirk. I put the spatula down and stand behind Jin's chair, placing my hands gently, yet firmly, on Jin's shoulders. I press my lips against Jin's ear. "This is not only a reward for last night, but a preview of what's to come". I end the sentence with a small, playful, bite on the earlobe and continue cooking.

Jin grins and polishes off his plate. He places the dirty dish in the sink. "I would offer to clean this, but I have to go. We can't both be late for practice or the guys....they'll suspect us"

"As if they don't already", I reply. I let out a soft sigh and plate the rest of the breakfast. "I don't understand why we can't be open and honest"

"You know why," Jin answers sharply. "No further discussion" He grabs his suit coat off the kitchen chair and slides it over his shoulders. He grabs his satchel and slung it on.

He starts towards the door before pausing. He felt my eyes on him. I take a step towards him, nearing my lips towards his. Jin averts his face. I sigh and kiss his cheek gently. "I love you". No reply.

I watch as Jin walks out of sight on the road. My phone buzzes and I check it. A text from Yoongi. "Is he gone yet? (-;"

<sorry if this chapter is crappy, this needs a lot of reworking due to inconsistencies with later chapters>