Ten <Namjin Fanfic>

4.

The tea feels hot in my hands. I watch Jungkook take it with ease. I place mine on the table instead of embarrassing myself. I've always felt enamored at Jungkook. Everything rolls off his back. Everything except..

"Taehyung," he states out of the quiet room. His eyes dash to his fiddling hands. Taehyung had been gone ten months now. Ten months to the day. He takes a deep breath before continuing. "If I had the chance, Kim, I'd do anything to spend another minute with him."

I nod solemnly and avert my eyes. I try to find an item around the room to focus on. I see a cabinet set up in his kitchen. He has his China displayed there. White with blue and silver edges in pristine condition. Tiny birds are etched into the middle. Also in the cabinet is a small collection of tea pots. Cast iron, red, one in the shape of a pig. There's also a picture of V in the top right of the cabinet. Hidden behind glass as to not damage it.

"Listen to me, Joonie. You will regret this. Jin loves you with all his heart. Give yourself to him. I don't see Yoongi putting effort towards your relationship"

My mouth drops open. "H-how did you know?"

He leans back into his chair, it creaks a bit. He smirks at me and folds his arms. "I know all."

I lean forward and place my elbows on the table. "I don't know. I don't believe Jin feels the passion we used to have. I don't honestly believe he loves me anymore." I pause. "But Yoongi, Yoongi makes me feel young. He makes me feel...alive! He gets my blood pumping"

He takes my words in. "You might have passion with Yoongi, but where is he when you're not full of passion? Jin is there for you always."

I know he's right.

"Do the other guys know about us? I don't even think they know I'm gay.." I say, trying to change the topic.

"No, I've kept this to myself. I figure it isn't my place to announce you guys to the world." He takes another sip of tea. "Celeste knows."

My eyes widen. "You told her?!"

"No!" He stops me in my tracks. "Of course I didn't tell her! I'm not that kind of a friend. She's the one who told me. We tell each other everything. She's got like a 6th sense or something. She's also the one who figured out that Jimin is in a poly relationship." He bites his lip instantly and looks up at me with bright red cheeks. "You didn't hear that from me"

I nod. "I won't tell anyone. I don't have anyone to tell anyway." I finish off my tea and place the empty cup down. "I'm really sorry I interrupted your day, Kookie. I don't know what I'm doing anymore."

"Perhaps you just needed some relaxation. Have you ever practiced meditation?" I shake my head. "I strongly suggest it." He stands up, walks to his cupboard, and pulls out a tin of tea. He brings it to me and places it in my hands. "Here, drink this. Twice a day. Once in the morning and once before bed. Promise me."

I stand up and nod. "I promise."

He suddenly wraps his arms around me and hugs me tightly. I feel his chest rise sharply. "Please don't make the same mistake I did. Go to Jin and don't ever let him go"

I hug him back and give him a small kiss on the top of his head. I feel his sobs into my chest. "It's okay, Kookie. We'll get better together. I promise."

"I love you, Joonie"

"I love you too"