I'm always right | 2018 |

1; see you later

I should have realised something was wrong. Maybe I'm too naive. But it's summer holidays and i haven't thought of anything school related in awhile. With barely a week left i wanted to soak up the freedom before i had to start senior year. Just my luck isn't it.

I wasn't sure when i left the house why i didn't say i love you. It was all a blur of memories. Ones locked in pains and chains. My father, as always, sat on the old leather couch, staring at the TV. Always watching one of the old shows. It was as if he was stuck in the past, way before he had me. I still loved him of course. he was still the man who raised me, even if he didn't show any love. When he was drunk on the other hand, he spewed all kinds of nonsense about how much he loved me. That never occurred when he was sober of course.

It was 8:00pm. I had just put on the last coat of mascara and stared at myself in the mirror. Somehow i managed to look decent. With my leather jacket on to fight the cold summer nights i was wearing a red loose dress. It still managed to defined my non existent curves. 

Lyttica, my best friend, was waiting outside. Beeping the horn far too many times to deem it necessary. Yet she continued anyway. I shake my head. and grab my phone and purse. I was already in a rush. 

Heading downstairs, i look at the old man. The years have not been kind on him. Life had stripped him away of any happiness. But still i knew deep down. very down. he loved me. and i will always love him. 

"I'm heading to Lyttica's house for the night, don't wait up, ill be back by 11" 

Trying to zip up my heels i didn't notice the stressed lines on his face, or the sweat dripping down even with the air conditioner on. I saw the package though. Didn't think it was important. The white envelope with no names and a bulky size. He was still staring at the TV. And only turned around to look at me. 

I had his eyes of course. Those eery grey eyes. His ones were dull. But still they warmed when they landed on me. And for the first time in awhile he said something that left me frozen. Or melted. which ever made me stop and really look at him.

"I love you. Why don't you stay at Lyttica's for the night and come home in the morning" 

It wasn't a question but i would have agreed either way. I didn't know why i felt a little angry. Maybe because this was the only time in 10 years he has ever said those words while he was sober. and trust me. he was sober. I nodded anyway. I was still confused and slightly weirded out. Maybe thats why i didn't say it back. 

He turned his attention back to the TV. And i was already nearly out the door before i called over my shoulders.

"Ill see you later"

guess i really won't

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H E L L O

wow okay so ive had this idea saved up for awhile and im pretty excited! but for the next 2-3 weeks there won't be any frequent updates. Ive got to study and writing is my stress reliever so i don't want to have to update unless i want to.

S O R R Y

also sorry for not posting earlier - ive had this chapter saved up but i wasn't sure if i wanted to post it yet. It's also pretty short keep in mind. Just an introductory chapter :))

T H A N K S

honestly thanks for reading this! <3 my heart is yours :))
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JANE