I Still Want You | Hoseok

"항상 행복하세요."

We were 10 when he started to love dancing. He started joining to a dancing class and after 3 years he joined underground dancing. I admit, he danced very well. His movements are flawless and looks like he doesn't have any bone whenever he dances.

He's my bestfriend and as we grow up I fell inlove with him.

"Hoseok-ah! stop it!" I crinkled my nose as I grabbed my bag. he keeps on pulling my bag to stop me. When we turned being highschool students he became more handsome in my eyes... I just shake that thought and continued walking away from him.

"Yah, why are you always being so moody?" he asks.

I stopped and looked at him. "because you always ask me how girls think about guys and you've been asking that for a month already, Jung Hoseok." I rolled my eyes on him.

I know he's been eyeing that girl from the other section. I know he likes her. It hurts like hell but because he's my bestfriend, I have to help him with her simply because I want to see him happy.

"Okay! I need help. I like that girl from the other section and I don't know what to do."

My chest hurts. I feel like crying and I'm close to breaking down. Thank god I'm good at masking my emotions.

At least that's the only thing I'm good at.

I sighed. "okay I'll help you so, stop pulling my poor bag!"

"Thank you, Y/N-nie!!!" he bear-hugged me. I was surprised but I hugged him back.

Don't do this, Hoseok. It'll be hard for me to let you go.

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After a few months of helping him to get the girl, they became a couple in no time. Seeing them holding hands everyday hurts me. Ever since they went out, I stopped eating lunch with him. I just can't take the pain I feel anymore. I know I helped him to get the girl instead of confessing my feelings for him.

Seeing him happy makes me happy even if I'm hurting inside.

I'm such an idiot.

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"please stay away from him." she said.

"I already did. What's your problem?"

"I mean... quit being his friend." she rolled her eyes.

I wanna strangle her neck. I wanna pull her hair so bad and kick her face for telling me to quit his friend but my miss goody good two shoes self  didn't say anything and walked away from her.

I don't want to cause trouble. I don't want him to be angry at me.

I have decided to stay away from him to avoid conflict.

I'll stay away from you Jung Hoseok.

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Every weekends, he would visit our house but I told my mom whenever he visits she would tell him that I'm out with my friends.

The truth is, I'm just locking myself up in my room crying. I don't want to face him. I don't want to see him anymore even though I miss him so much.

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"Yah, Y/N! why are you avoiding me these past few months?" he said while getting my book on my hand.

I looked up to him and snatched the book away but he raised it up. Our faces are way too close. He stuck his tongue out to me.