Body Swap Experiment

ENTRY 7&

Week 53, Day 1. In 5 days will be the 1-year mark of our experiment. ...

It's 12:34 AM. I can't sleep. I was uncontorllably (yet softly) crying...

She said earlier she was frustrated and she would cry herself to sleep...

And I was thinking about why I am how I am right now. I felt like while self-examinating myself around midnight while drowsy I discovered things I didn't think about myself. [I feel like an outcast. I want to impress people with my mathematical skills. I want to feel like a kid. Who doesn't? Maybe serious business people. Like in the engineering field. But I--] I'm getting confused. I feel like I'm NOT myself. Me after all those years of hiding in my room from my younger rough-hitting brother and whiny sister made it like a norm. But it wasn't past me like that. [My friends I hung out with were, at first, rough towards me. Eventually we were *like* real friends, but it felt more like a third-wheel compared to the others. And then I met another friend, but now I have no time to say hi due to the summer classes. Most of my friends that I can talk to don't require leaving the house to say hi, and it makes me like a hermit...]

[I want to stop this. I want to be like my TRUE self. But the problem is...]

[...How do you be like someone if you are unsure how they are?]

[Which is my problem. When soul-swapping, my uncertainties about my own traits were made unimportant. The part of her soul made me "me". What was really made was me losing some of my own identity and gaining tidbits of her's. No wonder it's stressful.]

**TIP FOR ANYONE TRYING IT** Side effects of soul swapping include losing what your goals are, forgetting parts of what makes "you" you, anxiety from the above symptoms, a loving connection to your swapper, and some other symptoms possibly listed in other entries. Only try with people that have a close connection. When doing this, you may realize people you thought you knew as close

-have differences making you unique. And some of those differences start to get lost. Look deep within yourself, and try to find yourself. Find who you REALLY are, and make it easy to remember.