Is this love? (Boyxboy)

Chapter 1

A/N: I'm super excited for this story, this is the second story I have on wattpad so check out my other one if you want it's bxb too. Please excuse any grammar mistakes and enjoy.

Payne's P.O.V

"It's all your fault!!!" My mother screamed at me. "M-mommy I'm s-s-so sorry!" I quivered on the floor, warm tears spilt over from my eyes and trailed down my pale cheeks. "My sons a fucking faggot, it's your fault your father left me! I hate you!" My mother picked up a glass cup off the table and threw it at me. It hit me right above my left eye, a shard penetrated deep above my eyebrow. My father had just walked out on my mother after I had told them I was gay. I didn't mean to hurt anybody, I just didn't want to feel like I was keeping a secret from my parents. My mom continued to scream profanities at me, all the while throwing things at me. Then she did something I never expected, she tackled me. "Mom,stop it please!!! It hurts stop!" I cried out desperately while wiggling under her. She harshly yanked the glass shard out of my forehead. I screamed and my vision gave way to blackness, but only for a mere moment. I opened my eyes and felt an extreme pain in my chest, it was just above my heart. "You will forever bare the shame of what you've done!" I felt her carve the letters S-H-A-M-E right above my mentally abused heart. At that moment my older brother walked into the room! "Mom get off of him! What the fuck?!?" My big brother Blake ran up to my mom and shoved her against the wall. "Payne call the cops!" Blake yelled in my direction. I whimpered on the floor that was now covered in my own blood, I quickly ran to the phone. My vision was spotty and I felt very lightheaded. Barely managing to call 9-1-1, my mother was trying to attack Blake, she was screaming at him to let her go so she could be free of the one mistake in her life... Her emo faggot son. I cry, cradling the phone to my bloody and bruised face and quickly gasped out my situation. I cried and huddle underneath the table, I watch my brothers face contort with pain as he pins my mom to the wall. The cops arrived at our house after about 15 more minuets of me crying and Blake trying to calm both me and mom. A kind looking women in a police uniform came and helped me into an ambulance. Blake insisted on coming with me to the hospital, he cried and held my hand. All I could do was squeeze his hand and let the tears roll down my swollen cheeks, mixing with the blood. That was 3 years ago when I was 12. I'm proud to say that I've fully recovered, my brother managed to get full custody of me. Which I have to say is great, I live with him and his girlfriend Lisa. She's super nice and understanding. Together her and Blake make me feel a little more whole. School isn't the same as home though. I get bullied constantly, but tomorrow is my first year in high school. So I guess you could say I'm so nervous I could puke all over myself. I won't, but I'm mentally preparing myself for the bullying that's bound to come. I really hope I'll make friends this time around, Blake said i would and he's never lied to me so I'll hold in there. I just realized that I've never properly introduced myself. My name is Payne Snow, Im a boy,my hair is jet black and looks blue in the sun. I like to keep it around shoulder length, I always keep my bangs to the left side keeping the scar on my forehead hidden. My eyes are bright blue, my pale white skin really brings out my eyes. Yes all natural bitch, I keep it real. I'm gay and emo, so if you can't guess I don't really have friends. I got bullied a lot at my old school this year is bound to be no different, but ya. My past haunts me in my dreams so I have slight insomnia. I listen to different types of music including heavy metal, screamo, punk rock, etc. My favourite band at the moment is Falling In Reverse. That's all you really need to know about me for now. I yawn and head up to bed after saying a quick goodnight to Blake and Lisa (Blake is 24 and Lisa is 22). I climb into bed after gathering my school supplies for tomorrow. My head hits the pillow and I'm out like a light.