Is this love? (Boyxboy)

Chap 3

Payne's P.O.V

Looking to my left I spotted one of the two freshmen year classrooms. I walked up and checked the attendance for my name. Sure enough though right above my name was 'Josh Sanders' I felt like I could've thrown up right there. I didn't kudos to me, but really Josh? He was my bully all throughout middle school. Like why? WHY WORLD WHY?!?! Well I was busy damning the world I didn't notice the classroom door open. A middle aged man with salt and peppered hair walked out. "Oh hello there," he said to me. I looked up surprised, still ranting about how cruel this life was. "Hi!" I quickly replied. He smiled at me "I'm Mr. Drewit, and you are?" He raised his eyebrows expectantly. "Oh my names Payne. Payne Snow." Mr. Drewit then told me I could take a seat wherever I wanted. He walked off to the staff room, while I walked into to the classroom. There were big windows to the left of the classroom, so I went to the very back left corner. I settled down in my new seat and lay'd my head down on the desk. Not even 2 minuets later the bell rang. All the students filed in like zombies. Mr. Drewit came in to the room and started the new year new you speech. He than passed out schedules to the students who hadn't gotten them. He was going to be our homeroom teacher. In the middle row close to the front sat Josh. Oh god, please please let him have forgotten me over summer. After going to some of our first day classes the lunch bell rang. Unfortunately for me we were back in homeroom, which means josh is closer to the door. Maybe he won't notice me. When the bell rings I get up and walk to the door. I stop dead in my tracks when I feel a heavy unwelcome arm drape around my shoulders. I look up to see Josh leering at me as he pulls me into the hallway. He pushes me into the lockers, I feel the locks digging into my back. I glare up at him, "don't touch me!" Josh sneered at me "oh did little miss faggot grow some balls?" I was boiling with rage by now, he walked up to me and grabbed the collar of my shirt. In the heat of the moment I pushed him, bad idea. He growled at me, then before I could react he punched me square in the jaw! I was in complete shock, then something I never wanted happen happened. The front of my shirt got ripped from the momentum since he kept hold of my shirt through the punch. Josh stopped and looked and my chest. He sneered and started laughing! Right above my heart was the word SHAME. Josh was laughing at me! No,no,no,no!!! I ran, not even bothering to look where I was going. So many repressed memories surfacing to my mind. My mother screaming at me, my fathers disappointment and anger. My tears clouded my vision, and I bumped into someone. "Hey, are you ok?" I looked up black spots and tears intruding my view of this persons face. I blink a few time causing a couple more tears to run down my pale cheeks. "I-I'm fine.." My vision cleared somewhat and I realized it was the boy I ran into earlier today. I don't know what caused me to do this, but I collapsed into this boys arms. He tensed at the contact before deciding that I would fall if he didn't hold me up. He was right, and I felt him wrap his one arm around my thigh and the other one around me shoulder. I tensed at the contact, he lifted me up bridal style. I felt him carry me outside, but from the mental exhaustion of remembering some very unpleasant memory's I passed out.