life is rough but keep going (lams highschool)(on hold)

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(((Jhons p.o.v.)))

It had been a few days after Alex joined our "group" if you would call it that. We started hanging out alot more and I soon had a crush on him I just couldn't resist him his nice beautiful hair his beautiful Chestnut eyes the way he speaks the way he moves I loved every part about him. I woke up and got dressed got some food and left for the park it was the same thing I did every morning, but something was off Alex wasn't there working away at his laptop. I went and sat down at my normal bench think he was just late an hour goes b he doesn't show up I starts to panic thinking about every bad thing that could happen i did this for a while still thinking I quickly rushed to school the first thing I see alex... Making out with Thomas jefferson the dick of the highschool the asshole everyone hated but he some how got away with it all. My heart leapt out of my chest I knew I was about to cry so I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in one of the stalls and finally letting my tears go. I stay here cry for an hour it was way past the bell I was all alone in till a formilar voice was heard it was Alex I guessed he didn't know I was In here and just the thought of him made me cry even more i started reaching for my bag to get my blade when I heard the voice again "hello?" I was startled I said a very Shakey "h-hello" I continued for my bag reaching in and searching around for it when Alex spoke again "jhon? Is that you what are you doing in here" I didn't say anything as I pulled out a small pocket knife I guess he heard me crying now "jhon are you. Crying?" I quickly said "n-no" I lied wiping away my tears. Alex then said " you kinda sound like you are" I soon replied " I am not crying I have no reason to cry...." I was now just spewing out lies there " then can you come out of the stall" he spoke again I put the small knife back in my pocket and stepped out there were clear tear stains on my face he imidetely saw so he hugged me his warm body pushed up against my chest I then asked him " are you in a relationship with Thomas jefferson" he soon looked me in the eyes directly and said "yeah kinda" my heart sank the feeling of being gently hugged by my crush faded he was with someone else he then said "come on we should get back to class" I then said you go back I'll get my stuff and wash up he said okay and left I went to get my stuff put instead of grabbing my bag i grabbed the knife I looked at it and cried more I then made a deep cut the thick warm blood poured out I made two more cuts before washing them off I watched and the blood left my arm and went to the sink there was no trace i washed my knife off and left the bathroom and headed to class.

(I know this fucking sucks and it is kinda short but I will try to do my best also you guys should go check out voodoothecat she is amazing at writing and she has two wolf and Lam's highschool she got me inspired to do this also I a bad at Grammer and punctuation so if you see a mistake don't be afraid to comment about it. Wc: 629)