Help Me

Chapter 9

I don't usually do this kind of thing before a chapter but I wanted to warn you first. This chapter maybe a trigger. You don't have to read it if you don't want to. This chapter gives you some insight on what Saddie is like. She is racist and she is a downright bitch. She gives women a bad name. I wanted to make her the complete opposite of Becca and later even Micha sees everything that was wrong with Saddie.

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Look at those freaks, Saddie spat in her mind as she sat outside of Micha's house. She has been watching them for a week now, trying to find a way to get close to Roland so she could use him against Micha. She never loved him, only loved his family's money. Micha was the captain of the basketball team and had amazing promise. Saddie saw herself as the wife of a pro basketball player, but no Roland had to come along and make Micha change his priorities. Micha still went pro but she was in the picture as his stupid baby momma. Her father called her a failure. She was so close to the Bishop fortune and she screwed it all up. Then Henry took the money Micha gave her when they went to Vegas. Now she had absolutely nothing! Her daddy refuses to help her this time, claiming she deserves what she gets.

She could've taken Roland last night but Micha's mother was a trained sniper and retired cop. Even in highschool his mother scared Saddie. She then followed Micha and his new girlfriend Beccie or whatever her name is to Sabrina's club of freaks. She could never see herself in that club and she tried to keep Micha out of their when they were together. She hated all of his siblings, always trying to make him see just how wrong she was for him.

They made a beautiful couple, and she wants that back, but it will never happen. She screwed up to badly. She should've tried harder to get him to marry her but not even her being pregnant with Roland made that happen. Soon she won't even have Roland to use against him. She was about to lose custody all because his sister and Beth stuck their noses where it didn't belong.

Her eyes landed on Becca as Micha showed Roland how to shoot a basketball. Becca stood so boldly in a yellow sundress. Saddie should be with Micha, then they would all look like a regular celebrity couple. Becca looked wrong in the picture with her dark skin. How could Micha not see that? She watched Roland run up to Becca and hug her as if she was his real mother. He never ran up to Saddie like that. She wouldn't let him, not wanting him to ruin her designer dress with his sticky hands. Saddie shivered in disgust at the thought.

Becca picked him up and gave him a kiss on the cheek, Saddie glared. Who does she think she is taking my place, Saddie thought as she glared at the happy couple. Seeing them so happy made her sick. Her phone vibrated and she sighed when she saw a text from her mother, asking her what did she want from Paris. At least someone loves her, she thought. She sent a quick text back to her mother. When she looked back up she saw that Micha was kissing Becca.

Besides his money Saddie missed how good he was in bed. She loved how he listened to her. Now she wondered what Becca made him do. They were both into that freaky thing and Saddie couldn't figure out why. Who would want to be hurt during sex? Eww. She did admit that the outfits were cute. But there was no way she would ever listen to a man. She was in charge of everything she did and whoever she was with.

She watched Roland throw the ball to Becca. Saddie hated Roland for the marks he made on her body. And don't get her started on the weight she had gained with him. Never again would she ever get fat. She has tried everything to try and get rid of her horrid stretch marks and nothing worked. She hated them. They were ugly. She wondered how her mother dealt with them when she was pregnant with her. Her mother's answer was that she was happy she was having Saddie. Saddie wasn't happy that she was having Roland. The only reason she didn't get an abortion was because of the special attention Micha was giving her. Her father pointed out that Roland was the best way to get Micha's money. So she kept him instead of giving him up for adoption. Worst mistake ever.