[[EDITING]] Secret Love//Destiel

Chapter 7

After Dean left, Cas sat back down by that tree, looking around and soaking in all of the memories he and Dean shared there.

First kiss after they went on their fourth date, in three weeks of dating. They had their first fight over by the pond when Cas thought Dean was flirting with Lisa Braedon(he definitely was but it was only because he didn't want to be rude to her). The first time they said "I love you," they were dancing in the moonlight underneath the very tree Cas was sitting next to when they had been together for three months. Cas heard Dean sing for the first time after they were together for about four months, and he knew at that point that Dean would make it big in the music industry.

They both got drunk up there on their one year anniversary of dating and Cas almost stumbled off of the cliff but Dean caught him and they had sex in the backseat of his car.

Cas started chuckling as he remembered that one.

Then, on their five year anniversary of dating, they went back to that oh so long ago forgotten cliff and Dean got down on one knee, proposing. Then two years later, they went to the cliff again, to get married.

They had so many good memories up there and they just added another not so good memory to the mix. Cas could see it a few years from now, Hey, Dean. Remember the day before our ten year anniversary we got into a fight and I almost ruined our relationship? Haha good times, right?

It was at that moment that Cas realized that it really was his fault. He scrambled up from under the tree, climbing in his car and driving away.

Cas pulled through the gate, smiling when he saw Dean's car in the driveway. But that smile quickly faded when he remembered why it was there.

He sighed, pulling the key out of the ignition, sliding out of the car and walking towards the front door. He twisted the knob, frowning when it didn't open. Locked. He pushed his key in, twisting open the lock before opening the door.

He made a beeline for the bedroom, trudging up the stairs and standing at the top, staring at the closed door. Sighing, he walked towards it, pushing it open and walking in.

Dean was laying on the bed, facing away from the door and Cas could tell by the slight shake to his body and the sniffles coming from him that he was crying.

"Dean? Can we talk?"

Silence.

"Please, Dean."

Nothing.

"Okay, fine. I get it. You're angry. Or upset. Maybe both. And you have every right to be. You don't have to talk to me, but can you at least listen?"

Sniffles.

"Here goes nothing." He mutters to himself, kicking off his shoes and walking over to the bed, lowering himself and sitting on the edge.

"I'm really sorry. I overreacted and I know I did. And as much as I hate to admit it, I was wrong. And you were right. There is no fixing what has already happened and the more I think about it, the more I realize that. I was looking at Twitter earlier and I could see how much hate people give you for not revealing my identity. I see how hard it is and I had never thought about how you felt about keeping our marriage a secret. I was selfish." He stopped, laying down and slowly inching closer to Dean who seemed to have stopped crying.

"I realize now that this shouldn't be just my decision. I see that it makes us seem ashamed of our relationship and I understand that now."

He felt Dean roll over and looked him in the eyes. They were puffy and bright red but that only made the green shine brighter. He still didn't speak though, eventually looking towards the foot of he bed and Cas continued his speech.

"People think you have a kid." He laughed a little but Dean's face stayed plain.

"I'm sorry. As I was sitting on the cliff, I was thinking about how everything started there. And the more I thought about it, I realized that I really didn't want our story to end there too." Cas stopped, a tear rolling down his face.

"And I've figured it out. I know how to keep our story going. I want the world to know that I'm yours and that you're mine. I want your fans to be able to see me and say, "he's that lucky bastard that got Dean Winchester." Because if there's anything in this world that I'm proud of, it's you. We've been through thick and thin together. I've had to deal with your shit and you've had to deal with my shit, too. But I don't want something like this to make it to where I stop having to deal with your bullshit. I want to have to deal with your shit for the rest of our lives because I love you, god dammit."

He had tears flowing so quickly down his face and Dean finally spoke.

"Do you really mean all of that? You're okay with me talking about you?" Cas nodded, smiling when he heard Dean's voice. "I've never been more sure about anything. Well, other than marrying you, of course."

And then Dean smiled.

"And I thought we were being sappy the other day. You just brought sappy to a whole new level, Cas." He laughed.

"Whatever, Dean. I just poured my heart out and- mmph." He was cut off by Dean's lips smashing into his. Cas closed his eyes, leaning into Dean's body.

"I... love.. you.. too.. Cas.." Dean said, smiling as he kissed Cas. Castiel moves his hands to Dean's chest, unbuttoning the shirt he was wearing all while kissing the man and climbing on top of him.

He got all of the buttons done and he and Dean sat up, pulling the shirt from his shoulders and Dean began pulling up Cas' T-shirt.

And you can guess what happened next.

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Sorry for no smut :(

But I suck at writing smut so I didn't do it. Sorry. But anyway, hope you liked it!

Did this make it better, Ayana?!?