SUN SETTING

xxix

dedicated to
hurtcopain
you spectacularly inspiring queen

11:55
hey, i know it's late and all but i suppose it's time to tell you of how you managed to seize every little bit of uncaring within me and twist it into something uncertain and uncontrollable. i don't like it. please stop. the butterflies are pounding against my stomach, the flutters aren't gentle, they are harsh, hurtful scrapes that spoon out my insides and make me want to hurl. i'm begging you, make it stop. do i really deserve this?

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11:58
can you stop ever so gently spinning galaxies around me? the stars twinkle so lovingly, yes, but i don't know. it's beautiful though, don't worry. i'm just unsure if you actually know me. i don't like the universe, it's so big, and we're so small. it's an infinity while we are but a short span of 75 to 92 years. maybe less. though you make it seem like we could be a forever.

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12:01
fuck, sometimes i'm not sure i actually like you... sorry about that. what i mean, is that, i think i may just enjoy the idea of you loving me, of you trying so hard for me. there were nice butterflies before, they fluttered like summer breezes in my belly, but now they're... evil, maybe? i don't know, they feel guilty, heavy, and like i said before, though you wouldn't know, harsh.

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12:12
still awake, yourself?

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12:20
babe, sleep, you need it ily

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*hesitation is a brutal beast*

12:21
ily2

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12:24
fuck

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